Her Tainted Journey.

2009-08-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

Testing testing 123.

2007-05-10T15:54:00.000+08:00

People, I have shifted.
No more updated posts will be seen in hertaintedtales anymore.
:(

I will inform you guys on the new link personally ya. :)

Bye bye www.hertaintedtales.blogspot.com...

2007-05-10T13:19:00.000+08:00

2007-05-10T11:56:00.000+08:00

Fucking hell, I am getting sick of blogger.
You know what, blogger has lotsa problems.
I fucking hate it.
When I solved this technical problem, the other one will arise.
Like never-ending!

2007-05-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

As mentioned, I spent the whole day home.
I did not start on my tutorials and did not read the unfinished story.
I plainly watched the television programmes.
Was watching the Price Of Peace and the fear creeped onto me again.
I remembered that was the fear I had when I watched the same show years back.
The fear of war.
Oh, I am happy that I am in a safe country; free from disasters and wars.
:)

I ordered pizza at around 4 plus and asked them to have it delivered at only 7pm when that idiotic sherline arrives.
And then fucking hell, the pizza arrived le she still have not reach lor.
Forever; late queen.
Catching up with a close friend is a nice thing.
:)
Felt so close and comforting.
I guess this will be the feeling I will miss when I offically stepped into the working society.

May friendship last. :D

Some tak-glam photos taken;

With no make-up at all.
And worst still, in my tweety bird pyjamas. :x

Can I love her forever? Haahaas.

2007-05-05T14:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday marked the end of the HR CONGRESS 2007.
Went to the seminar with zinc; fucking bored.
I tried all I could just to keep both my eyelids from falling.
That is not a lecture, I kept telling myself.
And so, I cant FALL ASLEEP! The speaker will get real pissed by me if I were to drop my head on that table.
Haahaas.
The food they served yday was mini soon kueh.
Delicious lor, with the spring onions on top of them, wooo, organsm in the mouth. :D

Everything ended fast and we went to Great World City for some hiao-ing.
Stucked in Zara and I love one of the bareback shirt there.
But zinc said no cos it was too revealing. Well, maybe. It just reveal half of my breast only ma, OOPS.
Haahaas.

Then, we bought some chocs and sat down for Ben&Jerry.
With some photos in the toilet ya, :)

Forever one lor. Haahaas.

Next, we went to town. :)
I bought a pair of pumps. And we slept in Subway for about 45 mins tgt.
So pai seh. Heehee.

Today is a sat and I will be at home with the unfinished story book again. :)
Well, tml will be a better day. :D
OOPS, it's the 6th of the month again; 19th months. :)

2007-05-04T01:56:00.000+08:00

On 2nd May 2007, Wednesday, I attended the HR Congress.
That is indeed a day of obstacles, suay day.

I had a stayover at his house on the day before, pinning the hope that he will be able to fetch me to the hotel at 630am!
LISTEN HARD, I GOTTA REACH THE HOTEL AT 630AM WHEN ALL OF YOUR ASS ARE STILL STUCK IN BED!
:)
So that day, I woke up at about 5am.
I didnt had a nice sleep cos' it wasnt my bed, my pillow nor MY BOLSTER!
The only thing I have there is my man. Muahaahaahs.
Hard sleep thou. :(
The worst thing happened alright, it started to rain!
My hope dashed. No free ride from him.
And so, I gotta just hitch a cab.
I had my breakfast at a shop under his block and the first problem came; I had a tummy pain. It was so hurting me that I gave up my breakfast after a few bites.
Was chided by him for wasting his money again, AIYA.

The second big problem arised.
Remembered me saying that Ive to reach the hotel at 630am?
And so, we waited for the cab in the rain under an umbrella at 615am.
FUCKING SHIT, I detest all taxis at that time.
I was simply invisible to them when they drove past me. HELLO, am I rrly that mini that you cant even see me waving?!
Was so worried as the mins ticked away.
Luckily, he was there with me. Otherwise, I will go crazy for sure.
In the end, I only managed to flag down a cab at 7am exactly when the 2 bucks subcharge is added.
Alright, so that is why I can never managed to take a cab before that! All becos' of that fucking 2 bucks.

PLEASE GIVE ME A CAB.

Where have all the taxis died to?

I cant stand this!

At 730am, I reached the hotel and fasterly went to my position.
There, I do sai gang lor.
Was ushering the big shots into the grand ballroom then to the concurrent session.
The food there was nice, hmmm, esp the mango-longan tart!
Nabei, yummy lor.

Alright, let the photos do the rest of the speaking, I am tired.

Me and jiejie eating snake in the toilet; handicap toilet.
To thoes who wants to use the handicap toilet at that time: SADDED!

She laughed like dont know what when taking this pic of mine.
Hello, I am bored okays.

It's my turn to be the delegate tomorrow! :D

2007-05-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

HR congress is approaching, am so excited.
Heard from jie jie that she will be in the FNB department and I will be the overall runner.
Oh all handsome rich men, here i come! :)

Lessons ended pretty early today and we went to Golden Mile cos' jiahao and jie jie wanted to buy some thai songs.
Fucking cheap, 3 for 10 bucks and they bought 6 pieces.
What's more worth it is that they give away one free piece for 6 pieces purchase.
Jiahao and jie jie are smiling away.
Heehee.
I missed the beef noodle there, hmmm.
Jiahao, when again? And this time I will tell you that I am hungry.
Haahaas.

:)
My heart shrunk abit when I saw one of my close friends teared.
Love really makes a girl go mad.
Fucking hate loopholes-love.

And I fucking hate lies more.
If you ever attempt to lie, pray hard to stay scot-free.
Once caught, that's it.

2007-04-29T15:49:00.000+08:00

As promised;

The day we went to bugis, weicheng and friends decided to have a neo-printing session.

In the pic; Ruqiang, WeiQi, Weicheng and of cos' Me.

That idiot told me that we had no pics during our kbox session. That is just a plain lie alright. I remembered so vividly that I was overly narcissist that night.
It's perfectly okie. I will dig out all the pics when I got hold on his handphone.(only if he didnt deleted the pics away, he just hate me)

On sat, in the chalet.

This picture let me realised that I should love myself more. :D
Hmmm, I really should.

Awww, so sweet. The love he has for ashton is never-ending. AWWW.

Ashton; the prince charming.

Bf's cousin. She is only 2 months plus older than weicheng and this denied weicheng in calling her biao jie. Haahaas. He refused to address her in the formal way cos' he was unhappy by the fact that they are only apart by 2 months. Haahaas.
Well, they are afterall a family. :)

I am learning to love my life and enjoy being in it,
do you?

2007-04-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

To sum up everything this week in a post.

The most vivid matter that took place this week should be the incident regarding xj le.
I fucking dont know where and when I stepped on her tail, making her jumping here and there.
Freak off.
I just hate it when I am being maligned by something I didnt do.
PLEASE, will I ever like Ruqiang? Well, maybe a zillion years later.
Who on hell will trigger the fire in Sj's mind?
It was not as if I have nothing better to do.
Well, this thing has been settled and I hope it will not hinder any of the single thing in my life again.
Fuck.

On a happier tone, weekends are here.
TGIF. :)
On friday, I lazily finished all my lessons.
Struggling and dragging myself to each lec and tutorial. I have no motivation to study at all! :(
I only skipped the 6pm lec and went off to meet my bf.
We went to bugis then to k-box. :DDD
He was so on form that day! I only sang a few songs and yet he sang endlessly. XD
LALALALALA~

Well, I am happier on Sat. :D
It was Xaviver 's birthday and we went to his chalet.
His one year old chalet. :)
I enjoyed the times in the chalet being with my bf's family members.
I find it warming and touching to know that I am able to blend into their family so well.
But on second thought, this fact will be a thorn to me when we are breaking up, hais.

Tomorrow will be a stay-at-home day.
Haahaas, finishing up all my tutorials and get a well-deserved rest.
My mum had helped me to borrow a book from my cousin. Nice book.
It will be a lazy sunday tml with the book and tutorials. :D
:)))

*will be posting the recent pics on recent events as soon as i got it from that idiot.

2007-04-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

Mr Hooi's getting married in June. :)
The ever scary DNT teacher is finally getting a wife.
We thought that he will remain as a lonely single soul for the rest of his life cos' of his fierce temper.
He actually getting married la, haahaas.
And am going to his church wedding.
So romantic to hold a wedding in a church. :D

I am all worn out today.
Slept thru the last lec, neckache.
Then, work.
And now, v shacked.
I hate the big ass girl.
Trouble always come out from mouth lar.
And she should just kept her bloody mouth shut.
Fucking hell.

Alright.
Welcoming the next hectic day. CB.
=(

2007-04-20T00:05:00.003+08:00

能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久
不要对我若即若离
让我伤心泪流

I have not started on my tutorials yet, freak fuck shit.
It is the last year already. Karis, CAN U JUST BUCK UP ABIT?
Nabei.

I hate my life and the people in it.
Totally.

2007-04-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

SIGHS.
Boyfriends?

2007-04-20T00:05:00.001+08:00

I disgustingly vomitted everything I ate in the buffet last night at the chalet.
Eeeee.
I did not stay over and instead went to live again.
But last night was fun, as compared. :)
Even though only got me, Jiahao and Ivan only.
Haahaahaas.
And there was one waiter that comes looking for me for my number.
We lied to him that Jiahao is my brother, blood brother.
I told him to ask for Jiahao's permission first, heehees.
So comical.
When the waiter asked jiahao what his surname is, he replied with a "CHOO".
Laugh my ass off man.
Poor thing, I have a brother and a fake boyfriend with me at that time, you have no more space.
HAHAHAHAHAHAS.

Alright, back to the chalet.
Have been to that place before when I am still v young.
Tanah Merah is the location.
The normal stuffs took place lor; cut cake, sing song and talk cock.
Haahaahaas.
The stars over there are beautiful.
There are so many of it and they all looked so reachable.
I LOVE STARS AND LOVE TO BE LOVED.
:)))

/2 OR RATHER 3 boyfriends are better than 1. Haahaahaas.

2007-04-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

The first academic week is coming to an end.
Time just flies, wait for no one.
Tutorials shall all take place next week, oh man. :'(

Have been working from mon to thurs.
The job I am holding now is well-liked by me. :)

On my way home from school today, I met sabbie and bao bao.
Sabbie, as usual, shouted my name loud and clear when I am still far away from her!
*FAINTS*
The school is about to recognize me soon, haahaas.
BUT, I love it when sabbie calls for me hor~ So warming to hear her calling out for me. :D
Okies, I really freaking realised Ive been wearing that Mango Tee for many times!
I browsed thru my friendster and got shocked by the times I wore that Tee.
WHY LIKE THAT? Haahaahaas, shall stop it now;thou the tee is so comfortable on the body.
More Tees please!

I complained to Sabbie saying why I do not see my pics in her friendster and demanded her to take pics with me.
Haahaas, and so, the cam-whoring session started;

Bao Bao~

Darling~

Nice schoolmates! =)

2007-04-17T13:54:00.001+08:00

If you did not cry after the show, you are not a soul.
No soul managed to hide their tears after watching this show.
I rented this disc and HP back from work earlier.
I am still tearing, mind you.
This is based on a true story where a child picked up a cub at the roadside.
The cub(fox) is deaf, mute and could not bark.
Despite all objections in adopting the fox, he still stay firm in his decision; to take good care of it.
It is a rather touching and tears threatening show.
The fox named Helen, being cruelly separated from its mum and left abandoned out in the wild due to its defects.
It could not smell and could not even bark. It has lost its natural instincts.
It's the child that taught him what is milk.
My first tear dropped when Helen drank the milk after several times of struggle.
It finally learnt how to drink. Something that is taught by Taichi (child).
My flow of tears came pouring when Helen howl. The first time howling. Howling to find Taichi. Howling to find its "mum"; Taichi.
The efforts Taichi placed made him recognized by Helen as its mum.
I FELT LIKE CRYING AGAIN. :(
Sobbs.
In the end, Helen died.
Died because it could not fight back the tumour in its brain.
Died peacefully away in the arms of Taichi.
Helen.

Am patting Blacki on my lap.
I love my pet, do you?
(:

Single and attached, what's the diff?
In the end, I am still alone by myself.
It's just a status.
One stupid status that ties a person down.
If you think that being attached will make you more treasurable by your other one, you are so wrong my dear.
I have made a wrong mindset and is trying to correct it.
No one is real impt to others.
For everyone is selfish; you and me included.

2007-04-17T13:54:00.000+08:00

I am getting to dislike school.
:(
I hate the needs to wake up early every morning and take long journey bus to school.
How I wish I have a car! Or someone offer to be my chauffeur?
Merlin's beard!
Have been missing the lost faces of many fellow schoolmates.
Where is Jiahao, Jasmine, Vincent, Clement and many many more?
They seemed to have disappeared from my schooling life, bad.
Well, zinc is still with me and I persuaded her to skip the 1pm lec.
Haahaahaas.
Am so exhausted.
The lack of sleep is driving me nuts.
NO SLEEP EQUALS TO KILL ME.

Enough hitting of the keyboard.
Gotta really grab some sleep before work later on. Am not wanting to be a life-less zombie afterwards.
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP IS NICE AND SWEET! =)

Toilet crazy!

The tide is starting to turn -- make sure you know where you're sailing to!

2007-04-16T16:14:00.001+08:00

This is getting a little too eerie.
I have been knocking into her the third times this week, just this week.
Am not pissed off or whatever negative emotions.
Just plainly felt that this is too much a coincidence.

Yesterday while working, she came into the shop with the same old type of face expression.
It is scaring the rest, hahahas.
Exchanged a few brief and explicit sentences with her.
Yea, she has a sweeter voice than me, but so what?
Haahaahs.
I have got my own unique and individual good traits too. :)
Everyone should have theirs.

Am preparing to go school soon in another 10 mins.
It is a tormenting procedure to wake up early in the morning and to drag myself into that chilly bathroom.
The worst thing is when you have not had enough sleep.
1 idiot really stupidly woke me up at the so exact moment when I am falling asleep.
In the end, I got asleep at only 5am.
@#$%^ Rubbish.

Poor Blacki having moodswing after since he is shaved botak.
Poorie boy. =(

2007-04-16T16:14:00.000+08:00

First day of school is terrible.
The scorching hot sun is burning me like hell.
Woke up late and was sent to skl by my dad.
I loithered outside the lec hall as I was too shy to go in, hahahahas.
Very stupid right.
I waited for half an hour till the lecturer called for a break.
Finally, I MET ZINC!
Haahaas, my all time poly fav. :)

It was only a 2 hours lesson today.
Zinc's best friend didnt turned up, hahahahas.
We are suay to the maximum!
I totally dont understand what the whole lecture was talking about today.
I just focused my mind on Zinc, heehee.

Always believed that if you feel like doing something, just do it.
And so, I brought food to his house and hung it on the door.
Then, I left.
(:
I felt happy doing so, not at all inconvenient.
I think this is crazy, I am becoming crazy.
Hahahahas.

Am waiting to go for work later.
So running out of bread now. :(
Bad feeling and Starhub just called to warn me of my outstanding bills.
My god, everything just come at one go.
I am suffocating.

2007-04-16T02:12:00.000+08:00

People, am so upset now.
LOOK AT MY SICKENING BLOGSKIN NOW. =(

I attempted to played around with my blogskin this afternoon when ive nothing to do.
I changed into whatever blogskin I thought it was nice and finally I went to customise my blogskin in BLOGGER.
Then, the worst happened.
I did not know that once you customised your blogskin to the classic template, YOU CANT CHANGE IT BACK TO YOUR ORIGNIAL TEMPLATE ANYMORRRRREEEE!
That was utterly devastating.
I felt like tearing myself up.
I tried ways to amend this stupid mistake but none helps. (I even went to Help in blogger, but their solutions are just fucking lame. They dont help at all okie.)
I even tried to create a new blog or changing to livejournal.
But livejournal has always been my secret blog and contains all the inner and real thoughts of mine.
After some real serious thoughts, I decided to abolish the idea of using my livejournal as a public blog.
Am afraid oneday people might just happened to view my private posts and that will be the doom.

Now, I have no more solutions but to stick to this blogskin. :'(
WHY LIKE THAT!
Miserable me, really.
I dont say I hate this new blogskin, but I prefer my old one.
PEOPLE, WHY WHY WHY LIDDAT!
Mischievous me makes me with a punishment like this, arghs.
Initially, the background was green and I hated it so much.
At this point of time, when everything seemed so useless anymore, I submit to fate.
I changed the background to white, hoping it will look nicer.
AGREE?
This made me realised that life is the same; some mistakes are just irreversible.
So, dont make mistakes in the first place people or you will face with consequences.
A BIG BIG SIGH.

Okies, when everything seems so cant be changed now, I just have to accept.
To enjoy is to accept.
=)

Welcome the new look of my blog, people.
What a new look, my dear goodness.

2007-04-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

He told me not to treat him so good.

I was dumbfounded.
I thought I wasnt treating him so nice anymore.
I always thought so.
I am afraid even the basic of me being nice is giving him stress.
So what should I do?

Why is there such a boyfriend that will ask his girlfriend not to treat him so good?
Am so puzzled alright?
Is it a wrong?
Hais.
HOW TO MAKE A R/S GROWS STRONGER?
Someone please kindly let me know.
I hope he is not being tied down and having shadows of his previous relationship.
Because he is afraid I will be the one to suffer that's why I am told to not treat him so good.
I know he meant good.
BUT PEOPLE, it is hard for me to agree to his request.
I never want to treat my bf badly and live with regrets when we break up.
That is the last thing i will want to do.
Seriously, I understand how he feels.
He is really worried sick that I will suffer like her in the end again.
Oh boy oh boy, why worry so much when the end isnt nearing?
It is so disheartening to hear you said all that okie?
So dont say thoes things again.
=)
When the time comes, I will know I shouldnt treat you good anymore.
Just not now.

Just now went to Weimin's birthday celebration.
My greatest fear came; she came to the celebration.
No one knows how worried I am. Am so dumb.
And the worse is, I gotta act like I am fine.
Actually I am fine.
Not jealous, not angry.
Just a little worried.
Haahahaaahaaas.
I see myself in her.
I see my ending in her.
A pathetic lil girl crying over a failed r/s.
BUT.
No one knows the future.
Maybe, just maybe, I may be different.
I might have a different ending from her.
The boy might just realised something and treats me better?
Boo shit. Hahahahaas.
I think when the time comes, I already died away.

HELLO, WHY AM I SO PESSIMISTIC????
ARGHS.
PEOPLE, DONT FOLLOW!
Never be pessimistic. Always believe that tomorrow will be a better day for each of us okie?
=)
I believe oneday, the boy and I will be very happy being with each other and treasuring each other better.
I always believed.

2007-04-07T01:40:00.004+08:00

Am turning in very soon,
after this post.

My eyelids are threatening to close at any min now.
Am so exhausted!
Woke up at 8am to meet friends and then went stri to work at 5pm.
UNTIL 11 plus in the night i then reach home. :(

Today was fun.
Except for Edwin, everyone attended. :D *applause*
My buddy, shirley's buddy and sherine's SUB BUDDY turned up!
Haahaas.
Everyone gathered at only 10am like that lor! Haahaas.
And while waiting, sherline smsed to the mac tv, sending over her messages!
And there it goes, her smses were shown on the TV. Haahaas.
And esp one for suraj lor!!!!!
:P

There are 2 things i regretted doing.
Firstly, i regretted wasting my money on MR Bean's holiday!!!!
ARGHS! SHERLINEEEEE~!
It is totally not money-worth larrr.
Secondly, I regretted not taking any pics with jun wei!!! :(
WHY LIDDAT!
HE MY BUDDY LEH. :'(

Sherline kan heng lor, get to take this pic. Me and shir are just too pai seh!!!!
fcukedit.

Westmall acarade should improve more la, other than puzzle bobble, i cant find any nice game to set my mind in.
But, i always got a fetish for Ferrari! Haahaas.
And credits to shir;

We headed to Aaron's house after that.
They played some board games which i dont know how to spell larrr, then i slept on the sofa watching tv!
Haahaas, it was filming 8 xian guo hai.
Nice show. :D

Then the cam whoring started;

The group photos! (without junwei. :( )

As usual, without fail, our dont want face de sherline will ask suraj to carry her!
And as usual, without fail, our suraj will want to please sherline with her request!
GODDDD~

SHE IS WEARING SKIRT SOMEMORE OKIE!
HAAHAAS. SEE LIAO ENOUGH TO FAINT!

2007-04-07T01:40:00.003+08:00

:( I did not go to the temple to pray to my grand-dad today.
I woke up pretty early for this purpose but you know, im sick again.
Aiya, this is like forever one. :(

It's raining v heavily now.
On second thought, it is also not bad to dont go lar. Haahaas.
Raining tends to dampen my mood.
WHY LIDDAT!

Yesterday night was killing me.
Am quite afraid to go live impact again.
It is just so boring. First time i felt bored in Live.
Halfway in Live, some of us went to the nearby kopitiam to get some drinks.
Then we saw benji and hoon pun already there lor, bo jio.
Haahaahaas.
After the drinks, I jiu went home le.
I dont want to get myself drunk last night and so i only drank coke, heehee.
Had wantun mee for supper.
Am getting fat.

After some consideration, i conclude that i hate to dream.
Nothing good came out from my dreams, i fcuking hate it.

Tomorrow will be working day.
And group outing day! :)
LSCT~
:)))

/am trying v hard to earn and save up money.
Learning to love myself more each day.

2007-04-07T01:40:00.002+08:00

I'm SO dying to write out one post.
If i were to stay at home the whole day tonight, i will go bonkers. FOR SURE.
HELLO, this is afterall a saturday!

Okay, let's recap what ive done for this week.
I worked on Mon and Thurs for this week.
So suay lor, uncle really forgot to inform me that he changed the schedule.
And so, i did not go for work on the wed and need not to go for work today!
THAT RRLY CAUSED MY BOREDOM.
I forgot what i did for tue alr. So skip that day.
Haahaas.
On Wed, kbox session with the girls. :)
On fri, pub with the group. :D
Tonight, i am going to find some entertainment alr.
But i dont want to go pub again larrrr, why that guy everytime will only jio me go pub one??? Want to take advantage of me arr? Heehee. :x

So qiao de hor, Shujun de mei mei is actually working in the same shop as mine leh!
Haahaas.
I din even thought that Xiang Jun is Shujun's sister.
It doesnt even come into my mind once till ruqiang told me.
SO funnily de qiao.
Haahaas.

One sad thing to note: Harry Potter's last book is out for booking le.
AND IVE NO MONEY TO BOOK ANY ONE OF THEM!
Arghs, so pathetic!

Came across one blog.
I read and hmmm, i thought it was so true.
How well can we understand another person? Does this question ever come across your mind?
When u assumed you have understood that person, it might just turn out to be that you are such a fool.
That other person is not the one u used to know or u assumed to know.
This is just a game created by FATE.
It's hard to be in love.
It's even harder to maintain being loved in the love.
What is a failure? How do we determine that?
No one likes to admit themselves as a failure.
But when reality is so obviously placed in front of u, you really got no choice but to admit that YOU ARE ONE FAILURE.
Am admitting to this fact.
I dont find any point to tell myself i am trying my best to be a nice person to someone anymore.
Ever since i knew my efforts are being condemned.
NO MORE.
The tireness and the hard-to-say-out words.. are enough.
More than enough.

At least for now, ive all my friends beside me.
:) this is considered fortunate already ba.
How perfect I can expect my life to be?
Hahahahas.
Suddenly, i realised one sentence from him is true: Friends are forever and i should treasure them aloooot.
I realised.
Thanks.

2007-04-07T01:40:00.001+08:00

Just like that, one day gone.
One special day gone.

=)
Very funny, these few days, i tend to wake up before 1pm.
Very punctually!
Haahaas, cos' that is the time my mum is off from work and i rrly gotta call her to get my lunch. If not, i will have to cook my own maggie mee.
Very funny.

Was at home in the noon.
Super slack.
I ate, i surfed net, i watched tv and then i took a nap again.
Finally, 5pm.
I dressed up in a v slow speed cos i know jiayan is not alone waiting for me.
She got that someone with her. :D
We shopped PS (there rrly nothing to shop one, so sucks)
Entered one shop and there is one nice nice full length mirror.
Forgive me for being so zi lian. Haahaas.

First time wearing stocklings out to town okie???
Haahaas.
Nothing shopped.
Went over to a nearby pub when the guys have reached.

It was so squeezy there.
And i realised everyone likes to sing the song Hao Peng You.
Haahaaas. I dont know how many freaking times i heard that song.
And each time with a different voice. :P

Tell u what! If any prositution shop were to put up this pic on their door, their business will be overwhelming! HAAHAAHAAS.

I sang only 2 songs there lor. :(
Jia chuan and jie tuo with jiayan.

I know this bitch loves me, really. SHY.

Introducing to u a faithful guy!
I admire his style of handling r/s. He and his ex broke up and they promised to meet each other at the place they first met after 3 yrs time.
Bcos' after a 3 yrs r/s, they realised they are drifting apart and they decided to find their ownself back.
So touching! He even kept his ex pic in his wallet!
HAO NAN REN!
His name is Zhi Jian. =)

Gekting's brother is handsome one lor.
Ah Booooooooooon~
Haahaas, he is coughing out blood when he taught me how to play pool i assume.

I caught one pic without their attention!
Gekting's brother is consoling jiayan about gekting's stuffs, haahaas.
Like professional like that.

Without this girl, i guess i will not be able to tide thru this period of time.
Thanks girl.

2007-04-01T23:45:00.003+08:00

I hate the present me.
The present me makes me like a fool.
A fool that keeps pinning for something that the other someone is unable to give and promise.
Im turning into someone i am afraid of too.
What is happening?

I believe in everyone's impression, im the happy-go-lucky me.
The one who always bring a smile on my face and the one who keeps saying beautiful words.
Yes, i only know how to make words beautiful.
I dont know how to bring the beautiful words into real life.
:(
Kinda saddening.
It really scare me off when i seriously think of what i am becoming.
No, that is not me, NOOO!
I seriously dont want to become like that.
Not becoming someone that gets people irritated, no.

I always thought that if i am able to give in and please him, everything will be fine.
And i am so wrong again, he needs nothing.
He really needs nothing.
I cant stop my mouth, i cant deny myself being afraid of losing him.
And because i do so, i am becoming overly-possesive and sensitive.
I HATE ME!
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!
I want the old me. :'(
I really want to become the past me.

I just want a relationship to be simple and nice.
Comically, along the way we are tgt, i kept paranoiding.
PARANOID IS NEVER IN MY LIFE B4 I MET HIM!
I've lost myself.

I hope i am able to find the old me back.
By hook or by crook, i must cos i really detest the current me.
Am not happy at all when i am so unhappy with myself.
I CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY HATE MYSELF.

How can i expect to be with someone when i am so discontented with myself?

Disheartened.

From this min onwards, i am gg to find the past me back.
Happy is rrly important people.

Human's great fear in life is being a weakling. We must all be strong!

2007-04-01T23:45:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling tired, so tired now.
ZzzZzzzZzzz

Just came back home after the Kbox session with the girls.
I realised nice things doesnt mean that you have to had it for too long.
We sang for a total of 5 hours!
Omfg, we were so hyper in the first 2 hours. Then, we turned to zombie for the remaining hours. :x
So tired from the singing and my voice had turned so hoarse. =(
My fav song today: Peng You (Zhang Xue You), Hai Kuo Tian Kong, Pai Shan Dao Hai,
Zhu Fu, Yi Qi Kai Shi De Lui Cheng and Mo Li.
If you notice, most of the songs i like are about friendship. =)
Am so happy and peaceful with them. Cos' i know they wont scold me and hurt me like the someone will do. Haahaahaas. =)

Sherline is crazy, like forever!
She is Kbox-disastor. It is just so hard to sing a song well with her around.
Haahaas, the MTV we acted are enough to make them roll on the floor.
Can you just imagine when u are singing so happily and finally come to the chorus, some idiot just took the other mic and start screaming!!!
That is sherline for your information.
HAAHAAHAAS.
But, i still enjoy la.
They are always able to make me smile. :)
Had a nice chat with shirley too.
She is thoes friends that even thou we seldom meet, but we know in each of our heart, our importance are firm.
Sherline, shirley and jiayan.
:D
LOVES.

The rest of my friends i also love la.
Heeheehees.

Haiis, no money liao leh.
So ke lian. =(
Mr $$$, where are you?

Some v lil pics:

Jiayan said this pic looks scary. But i think it looks alright leh. Haahaas.

Shirley and Sherline! :) SKS;;

No pic with jiayan, sadded.

Next upcoming event:
MEETING WITH THE GUYS! =))))))
SHOOOO EXCITED.
PEOPLE INCLUDED WILL BE SHIRLEY, SHERLINE, KARIS, SURAJ, EDWIN, AARON AND JUNWEI!!!!
JUN WEI WILL BE GG TOO, OMG.
HAAHAAS.
GIRLS, ARENT YOU ALL EXCITED? MUAHAAHAAS.
Shirley even asked me what to wear on that day, faints.
Haahaaas.

2007-04-01T23:45:00.001+08:00

We didnt went to swim this morning again.
We just cant figure out whether it is monday or tuesday that the swimming pool will be close for cleaning.
It's always the same old problem.
Arrghs!

Instead, i went over to her place for lunch.
I realised we have been talking too much these days, haahaas.
And it is all about the australia guy, omfg.
People come and go in our life.
Take everything in your stride ba, even if he rrly got to leave. :x

How come everyone is asking me out today?
Zhijian and guys are going for a movie and they asked me along.
But it felt weird without jiayan so i pushed it away.
Jeremy and guys are going to prawn at farmart.
But i dont feel good being with them so i rejected.
Oh, may retribution dont fall on me!
Dont let other people to reject me when i ask them to go out next time. :P

Feeling sick now.
A little calculation and true la, it has been quite a time since i last fell sick.
It's about time le lor.
No use praying for good health for me, i just cannot have it, fuck.

That idiot bought me dinner earlier.
One word: IDIOT.
Cos' he dont want to stay to accompany me. :x
Claimed to be tired and having stomachache, haahaahaas.
Stupid guy.

Happiness is DoItYourself.
Something that you achieved without effort, you will not treasure it well.
:(
Why human-beings are so JIAN?
Being loved is good but loving someone can brings u some unexpected happiness too. :)

Tomorrow's k session with the girls. =)
I guess i will snatch lotsa songs from them, esp from sherline.
Haahaahaaas.

If everyday can be happy.

2007-03-30T02:53:00.001+08:00

Welcome back to Singapore Jiayan. =)

(paiseh ah, we din take any nice pic so i put this up. :x )

I know that you missed the life in Australia and i sort of understand it la.
As in you really enjoyed the trip there; no one to control you and friends all around you at all times.
But, admit to the cruel reality.
We are born in this country call Singapore.
No choice, we gotta just stay put here and stay competitive in order to survive.
:D
Afterall, you got your 2 best friends here. Be contented okie!
Heeheee.

Alright, as everyone knows, jiayan is back!
I woke up with a stomachache and headache this morning.
Stupid pratas i ate last night. :@

Went to the airport for the second time this month. I dont know when will be the next time i go le. Haaahaahaas. It is really far lor.

Jiayan is so stressed when she returns. Haahaas.
We bought a cake for her belated bdae. =) Hope she will be happy.
Let's see what we did in her house (a mth since i been to her house, haahaas) ;

Keep playing with her caps. haahaas.

You know, it is a very mad thing to unpack stuffs! Especially after a month trip, horrible.

I cant stand the unpacking.

Jiayan brought a kangaroo BACK!

The presents from her! Thanks arrr!

I like the keychain cos it got my name KARIS on the back! And jiayan got one with her name too! =D

This small lil cute matchstick box! =)

She bought a lighter for me and it looks so cool in the dark!

So paiseh for her to buy me so many things.
Haahaas, really thanks ah!
=))))

Everyone! Please save your $$$$ for our genting trip okie!
You all promised me le okie! Haahaas.
Am so happy that she is back. LOVES.

2007-03-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

I am getting tire of this sickening world.
They say love beautify one's life.
HAAHAAHAAAS.
Why do i feel that love makes one's life so tiring?

People have been asking me if i am back with him.
Haahaahaas.
Holding you guys in suspense. =P
It is so funny to see how thoes guys tried to persuade me out of this r/s.
But, all meant good. Cos they are thoes who saw me cried like shit the other day.
Thank you thank you.
But love can listen to none of outsider's advice.
Ask your heart and follow it. =)
Jiahao asked me also; if wc want to be back with you you rrly want ah? (smth like this)
Haahaahaaas.
PEOPLE, thanks.
But pls believe this; no matter what decision i made, i know it is for my own good. =)

Hmmm, talked to sabbie in msn this noon.
Nice chatting with her.
Sabbie; WHEN MEET?
=@

Jiayan's coming back tomorrow! =)
Imagine my excitment! HAHAHAHAHAS.
It's gonna be a fun day tml, with all the girls, laughters and joy to have a best friend back by your side.
:D
I am not alone. YES!
Loving her so much. And i gonna see Gong tml also. Heeheee, my lesbian partner. =x
Stupid jiayan sent me a message in friendster stating not to expect too much from her present!
Haahaahaas.
LIKE WTF LOR. I just want you to land safely on singapore lar bitch.
(Just dont get me kangagroo soft toy jiu hao)
MUAHAHAHAAHAAS.

I realised boy-girl relationship is not the whole of the world.
It can only take up 40% of my life.
Am not going to put in too much this time round.
Be prepared karis. =)
Friends, family and school are equally important.
And the most impt thing now is to EARN MANY MANY MONEY!
NO $$ NO TALK! =)

Am preparing for a zoo trip with the guys.
Haahaahaas.
Everyone was WTF when i mentioned Zoo as an outing!
HELLO, why cannot ah?!
Haahaahaas, dont care.
=x

Some v cute pics:

Cousinly-love!

2007-03-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

I missed working.
It sounds so fake and dumb but it's true. I feel like working now.
And the true intention is that I want to continue watching the drama "Devil beside you".
I watched the first 5 episodes in the shop yesterday.
Both my eyes are glued to the tv.
I watched till i neglected the customers right in front of me. =x
I nearly screamed whenever the guy shows his care and concern and LOVE to the girl.
OMFG, i yearn for their love man!
Haahaaahaaas.
SWEETTT!

Today was boring.
I woke up at about 12.30pm plus.
Smsed my mum to buy me long john silver. Then my dad brought back rojak and law-mee.
So i shared with my mum. Blurps, a full lunch i had.
I surfed the internet, watched tv series and the 3 rented discs from the shop.
Oh my.
I was supposed to be with the group of them now one lor.
But jiahao not going i also dont feel like going le.
=(
Dont have him weird weird one.
Bi jing, he is closer to me than anyone else in the group.
Protector! =)))
HAAHAAHAAS.

Since i am not going to zouk tonight, i shall go to mos tml night. =D
Tomorrow MOS got event; showdown!
=)

Tonight; rest well.
Thurs night; dad's bdae and MOS.
Fri night; JIAYAN!
Sat night; WORK!
Sun; him.
=DDDDDDDDDDD

2007-03-27T00:11:00.000+08:00

Deathnote2 is out on VCD/DVD now!
=)
I watched the movie again 2 times earlier.
Heeheeheee.
But, i still cant figure out why L's assistant died.
Hais.

Worked till v late today.
Thoes customers really not considerate one, knowing that we will be closing at 1030pm and still step into the shop at 1030pm.
Stupidly.
I dont know want to buy the Zhang Hui Mei's disc not leh.
Like a waste of money but there are real great songs in it.
Wonder if uncle could just give me for free.
Haahaas.
FAT HOPE.

Sms keeps coming in while i am working.
And most of them are from roosevelt.
I am happy that he is being concerned about me. But i think i will be all fine by myself. =)

Jiayan's coming back this FRIDAY!
Isnt it so FASSSST?
=)
And so qiao de, i am not working on thurs and friday.
And so qiao de, thurs got party in MOS.
And so qiao de, danny got the tix.
Haahaahaaas.
Everything so qiao de!
Am going to the airport on Friday! =))))
YES!

Thoughts swirling in my mind.
I know i dont have to tink so much le la.
=)
Now, i will just need to sleep and wait till tml.
And then, everything will be solved after tml.

2007-03-26T00:44:00.000+08:00

Am supposed to stay at home so as to rest for tomorrow's working day.
Had went out alot of times the past few days, so tire.

But then leh, very bo bian de, the group of them came under my block to find me le.
Haahaahaaahaas.
I had to go out. =x
I forgot how many freaking times i wore that black Mango tee out le. Heeheee.
We went to Marina to put kite.
Stupidly lor, we reached there about 7pm.
Fighting against the change of day.
We put a total of 4 kites!
But then, none was successful. :(
We wrote our wishes on our kites and intended to fly them high into the sky so as to make them come true.
My wishes were simple, but the kite simply dont want to fly.
I guess my wish will nv come true again.
Haiis.
In the end, we burnt the kites.
Stupidly, we feel that if we burnt them, it will turn into smoke and then still, they will be able to go up high into the sky.
And then, our wishes will come true.
STUPIDLY.
We ran the whole field like dont know what 3 years old kid will do lar.
Haahaaas.
Buay tahan.

Then we went to have our dinner at Secret Recipe.
=x

The last stop; we went to a v nice place to sit and talk. :)
I had my Lychee Martini. :D

They asked me to eat the cherry in a v nice way.
So i tried.
But it failed. It looked so ugly.
Haahaahaaas.

I tried to make myself so tire each day so that i could have a good sleep.
Aright, it will be a better day tomorrow! Money-earning day! =)

2007-03-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

Our dearest Siwei POP le.
Haahaas. :D
He shed a total of 12kg in total, incredible la.

We went out today.
First, i went to sherline's house again.
Met up with shirley and sherline. HAHAHAAs.

Causeway point for Pastamania.
I had my Seafood Mania with Marinara sauce! =)

More chilli, more cheese, more pepper. MORE MORE MORE!
=)

We chatted about Siwei's life in the army.
Haahaahaaas, and we remembered he telling me that if oneday i have no boyfriend, he will go for me.
Now, he tells me that he is kidding. Fug it. HAHAHAHAs.
Anyway, unity sec skl life is still the best lar!

We watched a stupid show; the haunted school.
HAHAHAHAs. As usual, shirley is wasting her money cos her hand will always be on her face.
Siwei is laughing away and sherline is commenting like nobody's business again.
Heehee.
The ending is so stupid lar. No one managed to solve the mystery. HAAHAAS.

POP lor! =)

We intend to go and sing song one lor, but partyworld too ex liao.
SO we retreated.
Instead, we took pics again.

Some pics when jiayan is leaving:

In everyone's eyes now, i am the one playing the bad guy.
Haahaas, funny.
As long as i know i am not, jiu hao. :)

2007-03-24T02:29:00.000+08:00

Exhausted. YAWNS.
Stupid zinc put me aeroplane today. :@
She too many excuses to use alr la, i cant fight back.
HAAHAAHAAS.
God knows if she will be going on sunday. =x
Good luck to your new job in Partyworld ah jie jie. Dont gei siao gei siao go into any empty room to sing ah. =)

I went to sherline's house.
She is in her pyjamas the whole day lor. HAHAHAS.
Hibernating.
Being a nice soul, i bought her lunch. :D And her mum cooked me dinner.
She is the only friend that i have to use a serving spoon when having dinner with her family members.
So clean for what??? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS.
She kept doing her project and listening to my craps lor.
But, i am still glad i have a listening ear beside me larrr. =)

See! So chor lor!

Went home to change my clothes and headed out again.
Mum scolded but heck la. Heehee.
Went to have supper with the guys.
There is a nice eating spot near Great World City. I like the drinks there. =)
Jiahao went to genting alr. =(

I am bored lor.

The guys told me lotsa stuffs.
Quite alot are true. But it rrly depends if i want to get them into my mind. :)
Afterall, understanding and action-ing are different.
I am afraid time will overtake everything.
The lost of something precious is painful but unavoidable.

Let nature take its own course.
If we are rrly meant to be tgt, we have nothing to fear.
If we are rrly fated to be tgt, nothing can bring us apart.
But only if we are fated.

2007-03-23T17:00:00.001+08:00

This is a tough decision i made.
But, am not going to give up. :)
What doesnt kill me, makes me stronger.
Afterall, i need to retain some of my pride and self.

Right now, i am in that fucking sherline's house, haahaahaas.
She is singing along like nobody's business now. So am i the one out of love or she is?
HAHAHAHAHAS.
Why do she seems sadder then me? FUNNY.

Today is my dearest bitch's birthday.
If she arent overseas now, i will be spending the birthday with her.
And, i wont be spending the day with that stupid sherline already.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY FRIEND.
HAPPY 19! =)

/this might take a long time to recover but i believe in myself.

2007-03-23T17:00:00.000+08:00

2007-03-21T13:26:00.000+08:00

:)
If only love can be sweet and simple.

Been through a tormenting period last few weeks.
Luckily I can always see a beautiful rainbow after a heavy rain. =)

Last Sunday,we went to HarbourFront and had our breakfast in one of the wow-wow-wow restuarant. HAAHAAHAAAs.
Correction: Not only us, is the whole family.
I nearly woke up late that day. Got the hell outta my life when his sis called me and asked me to meet her in another 15mins when i have jus woke up.
I need at least 30-45 mins to get prepared one. Hehe.
I bathe ultimately fast and went down without makeup. SCARY!
We reached there at 10.30am and the porridge there is heavenly delightful. =)
Haiis, shouldnt have shared that bowl of porridge with him. HAHAHAHAHAS.
That was the first time i ate there; the PRIMA-TOWER.
The tower will rotate on its own without u noticing. =)
Nice right?!

Yesterday, i went to vivo with shuhui.
She is flying off this fri. How come everyone is flying here and there ah?
Kee siao one.
I bought new biscuits for Blacki! =) But one of the biscuits is too hard. Blacki had a hard time chewing it. HAAHAAAs, so pai seh.

The invisible stone was gone. :)
Happiness appears because you are here.
We have got a problem and that is i dont give u the trust u needed.
WELL, decided.
The trust that needs to maintain this r/s, i will give. =)
But pls dont misplaced my trust. AGRRRR!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAS.

2007-03-19T11:38:00.000+08:00

Everyone is asking me the same question now and then.
Whether I am fine.
I replied them with a yes thou i know the inner real ans inside me is a no.
It's been hard to act happy but i have been acting like this for 90483726 years.
Aint i great?
Haahaaas.

Cant forget the day in Live Impact where i cried like mad.
I think i scared many people there. =x
Told myself to stay calm but liquor always bring out the inside me, so real.
I know i shouldnt drank so much but actually i think i din drink alot.
I guess i chose to be drunk that day.
At least, when i am not in my right state of mind, i feel that i am karis.
Unlike now, imitation one.

What actually made me so miserable?
I chose to avoid the question always.
Now, am so sure.
I know what makes me happy and miserable.
But a pity, the both of them are the same person.
So how?

The hand i once held wasnt that warm anymore.
The body i once hugged wasnt that comfortable anymore.
The kisses arent real anymore.
I felt that i am forcing things to happen.

On a slightly happier tone,
I passed all modules. =)
Third yr next sem, isnt is so fast?
Haahaas.
Everyone passed; jiahao, benjamin, jianxiong and jie jie passed. =)
Gong xi gong xi.
And, i have found myself a job alr. =)
Thou the pay is lower than what kumon offers, nvm.
I believe this job will be much better than kumon.
Smile karis smile.

2007-03-14T10:08:00.000+08:00

好久没有你的信你的电话
我只想要清楚的确定一下
我们只是吵了个很长的架
或者你打算就这样分了吧

妈妈电话里问我过得好吗
我只能咬著嘴唇说不出话
每天晚上一个人走路回家
泪水就不停无意识的流下

我们不是才爱到一半
还有好多梦想没有实现完
我想送你的生日惊喜夜晚
你想带我去的旅行怎么办

我们不是才爱到一半
是谁讲会好好珍惜这情感
也许不能爱会是一种遗憾
然而不能不爱却是种悲惨

想著你的温柔比不上自大
想著你的亲吻比不上谎话
这是我要自己死心的方法
但我怎么还是那么爱你呀

2007-03-07T00:09:00.004+08:00

Some pictures from the IT SHOW.
=)

Zinc's eye candy is just below this sign! SHOU YING YUAN!

Ive been explaining the different types of webcams for the full 4 days! Ask me about pixel and resolution! i know it all! haahaas.

My 4 days pet on my shoulder! haahaas.

E row of pets!

The IT SHOW.

Oh no, tml's 14th.
Results coming out!

2007-03-07T00:09:00.002+08:00

I feel so clear-headed now.
For the whole of all these weeks, i am so clear of what i want now.

God bless.
Make me peaceful and happy.
Make sadness away from me.
I know it's hard but i will learn how.

2007-03-07T00:09:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow's the last day of IT SHOW.
Everything ends so fast.
Happy things just dont last.
I enjoyed working in the IT SHOW despite the 9 hours of standing.
These days, ive been taking cab home cos' my leg starts to give in always after my work.
Standing 9 hours stri isnt an easy feat.

The crazy bitch is forever crazy.
Zinc is forever commenting on other people and looking at all attractive guys in the SHOW esp the CASHIER!
The long hair freak.
HAAHAAHAAS.

Everything is alright except for some personal affairs.
I dont want to be like this anymore.
What comes may.
Fate play us around in its finger tips.
So, no matter how much i dont want certain things to happen or get misunderstood, it still will somehow.
No point anymore to explain.
My friends wont need it and my enemies wont believe it anyway.
I just hope the rain will go away fast and leave no scar onto me again.
Or rather, let the rain stay and i go away instead.
Am getting so ambiguous in what i am holding on now.
Not everything seems to be on the right track and i do not the ability to correct it too.
Somehow i will learn to live on..
Strong.

My arms and legs are aching very badly now.
Oh yay, i took the train last night.
HAHAHAS.
And i took the wrong side and stupidly wasted an hour plus on train.
By the time i reached CCK, my legs gone alr.
Took cab from lot one instead.
HAHAHAs.
I need $$$.
I take more than normal doasge of medication now so as to withstand the pain.
19 pills last night.
God, am i dying?
:)

/jiayan, pls return from wherever you are. Or just send me your ears and mouth.
I want to talk.

2007-03-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

Realised ive been blogging too frequent these days.
Haahaahaas.
Somehow i just feel weird without blogging what i did for the day and the thoughts i have in mind.
Buttt, i rmb my primary school teacher once told us that it is a GOOD hobby to write a diary.
=)

I woke up pretty early today. Considering for the past few days, today is a miracle.
I dragged myself up from bed and went to have a cold shower so that i could rrly WAKE UP.
Haahaas.
I stepped out of my house at about 10.15AM!
Purpose?
Cos i will be working for the next 4 full days with the bitach named zinc.
So i was thinking that the idiot will not get to see me for the next 4 days le. Though i perfectly know that he wun mind and in fact he will be more than happy, i still wish that i could cook a nice lunch for him. :)
If not for 4 days i cannot see him then also cannot make anything for him, i WONT sacrifice my sleep.
SLEEP IS IMPT TO ME!

NTUC-ing early in the morning like an auntie. I decided to cook spagetti.
Haahaas, as usual.
I reached his house at about 11 and started the cooking till 1pm.
Muahahas.
I accidentally cooked too much and i ate 1 big big bowl of it and helped him to finish the leftover.
:( am fat le ok.
then i slept after the meal again.
KILL ME. :((

For now, it is 1.40am.
I am supposed to be in sleep cos i will be waking up at 830am tml.
Insomnia again.
Jiayan called back earlier. Haahaas.
i miss that bitch.

2007-03-05T18:40:00.000+08:00

AGAIN.
I peeped into the calender earlier and was so happy to realise it is the 6th of the month again.
:)))
HAPPY 17TH MONTH BABYYYY.

Month by month.
Time is tickling so fast.
Along the 17 months, i have met with lotsa quarrels, cries, laughters and fun.

Someone said not to rmb the past, too lazy to do so.
Haahaas.
And i guessed i am too stupid to do so.
Memories are the killer.
We can always easily say not to rmb the past love ones or the one we love now.
But, pls, memories always forbid us from doing so.
I looked into my memories and realised at times i've made some wrong moves.
Luckily, the wrong moves arent continuing. :)

People can make mistakes but cannot afford to sink into their mistakes.
Mistake is for me to learn something and prevent myself from doing the same old thing in the future.
I guess... there are some mistakes in my life.
Be it human or objects.
WELL, mistakes.
and, memories.

OKIE.
Tomorrow will be a better day i assume.
:D
Darling promised to bring me out.
Haahaahaaas.
Since it is our anniversay, i call the shots!
We will be going to Sentosa by train (first time okie).
Haahaaa, gonna take the Carlsberg Tower and kia kia.
Then we will be gg back to vivo for food and movie.
And of cos, i must go to Pet Safari!
I want to buy water bottle for Blacki. (am going to take the water bottle to the counter and leave my bf there wih the cashier.)
Haahaaas.

I hope tml will be a wonderful day with him.
:)))
It must be la, cos is with him.
Moooacks.

2007-03-04T17:36:00.000+08:00

It is a lazy lazy sunday.
I forced myself to sleep till 2pm.
When i can force no more, bo bian, i opened my eyes to face the reality again.
My mum was back early today.
She busied herself with the preparation for the steamboat.

Yes, we had steamboat today to mark the end of lunar new year.
:)
I sat 2 hours eating. Haahaahaaas.
My stomach was disgusting bloated at that time.
What makes it worse was that i went to sleep 20 mins after i finished the heavy heavy meal.
Muahahahas.
It is heavenly nice to sleep after meal. =)
But the consequences, you gotta bear your own lor. haahaas.

I did nothing today except eating.
Oh my god.
Later, i am going to tidy up my room.
My whole room is still in the post-exam state.
Haahaahaaas, it's time for some last spring cleaning! =)

Some random pics over the past few days:

The last night.

My 5,10 forfeit. I cant play 5,10. =(

I made this for his lunch. =) Aww, cute.

Something interesting pls?

2007-03-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

She asked me to upload this pic into my blog.
I smiled and promised.

Today is the day.
I think Jiayan is in the mid-air now, feeling extremely anxious about the life in Australia.
Last night, we went to CCK park for a dinner.
The whole group of us went and many presented their gifts to her.
Haahaaas, i just wrote a letter. :)
Well, it's always the thoughts that count right?

Today, I met her as early as 3pm in Lot1.
Her flight was a 9pm flight.
We had our lunch together and accompanied her down to the airport.
The journey was very sad.
Perhaps it was because this is my first time sending off a friend that is so close to me.
I put on my ear piece and kept unnaturally quiet throughout the journey.
I know she is only away for a month.
But, please think, she is my pal, my soulmate, my best friend and everything.
God bless i dont meet with any unhappiness this month when she is away.

At 5 plus, we reached the airport.
I still dont feel that she is REALLY leaving ok!
We slacked around and took lots of photos.

She checked in.
And then, they decide to go out and have a puff.
Jiayan is getting too nervous already.
We played around!

The one behind is my future BF. She/He promised to be my stead if i am single!
Muahah.

I looked more like i am a tourist. :DD

When she is finally going in, I realised this is so real.
Hugged her with tears, hoping everything will be fine for her in Australia.
I mumbled Take Care to her and i know she listened becos she smiled back to me with tears too.

I will miss you.
Be safe and most importantly,
Play Safe. =)

握着你的手把祝福送到你心中
孤独留给我不要担心我怕寂寞
回忆是我最好的朋友

也许你愿意写信给我一封接一封
告诉我在你的世界中依然记得我
机场的午后
有了你的影子在我的心里晃动
只想对你说
祝你一路顺风

2007-03-03T02:25:00.000+08:00

It is hard not to feel sad sometimes.
With the fever and splitting headache, it is really hard to tell myself i am ok.
Jiayan's leaving tomorrow.
I know i have been whinning about it far too much. But, i really miss her you all know?!

Where's my bf when i am sick? I cant find him.
Can someone look for him for me?
I need someone to pass me a cup of plain water and coaxing me to bed.
Especially when i am ill.
I need love.

Feeling so terrible at outside earlier.
I thought i am going to faint anytime.
And HELLO, whenever i sneeze now, i see BLOOD!
Muahaha, isnt this so funny?
I think i am dying.

The little clock on the corner of my laptop tells me it is 2.36am now.
I just cant get to sleep la!
My head is killing me. I can sense that it is threatening to burst very soon.
The fugging headache now is I cant reach my bf!
I think he shall see me in my deathbed then.

On a lighter tone, I am sick once again.
Oh my my.

2007-03-02T12:32:00.000+08:00

To Peh Kah Yan:
=(
You are leaving very fast. Once we fall asleep tonight and wake up the next morning, ive to say goodbye to you already.
What's so bad about this porky singapork you tell me?
Got to fly so far to Aus and for a bloody one month. Arent you being so BRAVE?
I will never dare to make such a decision; flying over to somewhere far without my dear ones around.

Time flies.
You are my longest friend made in my life. =)
I didnt know i will still be a close friend to you now when I first knew you in Pri 3. Haaahaaas.
I love you, my friend.
If you realised, I really love you. :)

Look at this; i think it is taken years back back back. Look at the length of my hair and you will know it is a real old pic alr.

Undoubtfully, you have made your presence in my life wonderful.
The times we spent ah, omfg, is so much lor.

I know you like K-box! haahaas.

Remember the times we cam-whored? Basically everywhere we go, we will do so. =D

Thanks for your help on my chalet. =)

Your 18th bdae in gong gong's house.

Jolinna's birthday surprise.

And the very first time we went to Zouk. =(

I hope you treasure all the memories you had with me and come back safe and sound after a month okie?
And, please pray hard my bf dont bully me when you are away. Otherwise i dont know who to confide in. Haahaas.
I wish you luck and fun in this trip.
REMEMBER, bring back only happiness and cast all sadness back in Aus. Dont bring thoes unhappiness back ah! =)

Love you,
Karis Choo.

2007-03-01T02:08:00.000+08:00

A great thank-you to thoes who care for me.
I appreciate that.
Loves. =)

Am so tire. I think i am going to fall sick soon.
I can feel fever coming. =(
The sickening rain la, stupid.

Been with Roosevelt then with JianXiong the whole day.
Helped him abit in econs.
It made me feel good when i see him getting more confident in Econs. =)
It is nice to see efforts being paid off. =)
But i just hate the rain today.

My medication is running out. Terribly low in amount now.
Left with 5 pills.
Am going to the hospital to get more of it.
My life depends on pills, fshit.

Luckily the boyfriend is willing to accompany me tml.
Otherwise, i will be bored to death on the bus.
(Surprisingly, he did not say ma fan this time leh. =x agreed to bring me go so readily. Loves.)

*Been to Chun Dao He Pan le! =) Happy! Happy chi new yr! =)

p.s Jiayan's leaving in 2 days time. ='(

2007-02-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

SO CUTE! =)

:)
I am fine again.
I dont believe this. I actually do get so emo too at times.
Haahaaas.
Well, out of the emo zone now. =D

2007-02-27T01:11:00.000+08:00

This blog is useless.
I am unable to write my inner thoughts here.

Am not feeling good today, yesterday, yesterday de yesterday.
Everyday.
Everything and anything just seemed to make me pissed off.
I cried while talking to jiayan earlier.
I felt depressed when i thought of..
And i felt helpless when i recalled of..

Happy is a choice.
I always read this sentence and thought i have sink this sentence into my brain.
Haaahaaaas.
Stupid lar, am still unhappy lor.
A forced choice is not a choice.
I dont want to act happy le la.
Nabei.

AM NOT FEELING HAPPY.

2007-01-29T20:59:00.023+08:00

My lover is being moody these days.
I dont know how to help.
And instead, i kept making him frustrated.

What can I do?

2007-01-29T20:59:00.022+08:00

WOOTS.
So the fast, my lover; weicheng is already 21 yrs and a day old. :)
So many disturbing incidents happened last night.
But all in all, i guessed everyone enjoyed.

I went to meet the lover at his house at about 2 plus.
HE IS SLEEPING AT THAT TIME! WHO ON THE RIGHT STATE OF MIND WOULD WANT TO WASTE THEIR BIRTHDAY SLEEPING YOU TELL ME!
My boyfriend did it all. :x
No choice, i left myself to the TV and computer.
It showed "The price of peace" yday noon. (i kinda scare this show cos the japs terrified me alot.)

Luckily, my bitch arrived.
She came with 2 packets of carrot cake, haahaaahaaas and lost 120 bucks to the lover, so the suay.
But in the end, i dont think she really paid the lover money. haahaas.
Be prepared to get nagged by the lover thou i know he dont have the least intention to take the money from you. His mouth is simply vicious.
Haahaaaaaas.

We went to swensens for our dinner.
The ice cream there, WOOTS. :DDD
The guys talked and the girls cam- whored.

No one snatch him from me. He's my one and only OK!

The lover has become more and more muscular arrr. Please dont try to molest me ok, haahaaas.

My bitch of the day. :)

Then, the disturbing incidents happened.
We went to Bleuliquid and discovered that the half bottle of wine we got there is disappeared. Because the pub had changed owner and then the wine is gone.
Next, we went to Liquid and the same thing happened. The half bottle of wine we got is disappeared as well and the reason is the same.
Oh Fuck.
Live Impact is out of question cos we have got 2 17 years old friends with us.
IN THE END, we went to Liquid to cut the cake and then headed to PARTY WORLD!

My boyfriend cant drink. tsktsk.

Oh, did i mention Zinc came to meet us?
Haahaaas, that bitch came after her liondance.
Siao siao, she chao chao also is shi wei hor.
LMAO.
Greatly appreciated la. =)

I sang till i mad ah.
Cos i was the only girl in party world. Zinc and sherline left and the lover's sis dont sing.
So i sang it all, single and duet. ALL. :)
The lover won quite a bit in gambling last night ah. Haaahaaas and he wavived my cover charge.
Mooooooooacks.

Had the night spent by his side.
Hugging him to sleep is my fav! Nothing beats when you are able to hug the one you heart into sleep. :)
Dont believe?
You try.

smth worth to be commented:
am not drunk last night lor! thou i kip losing in 5,10 but i managed to self-control, heeheees. Dont make the lover ma fan. :x

2007-01-29T20:59:00.021+08:00

H.A.P.P.Y B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y
TO MY DARLING!
H.A.P.P.Y 21ST Y.E.A.R.S O.L.D!
The age to freedom. =)

Have been busily preparing his brithday card and wrapping up his present last night.
I realised ive lost touch on how to wrap a present anymore.
I used half the amount of a scotchstape to wrap that present. -_-''
Do not underestimate the hand made card alright? It wasted hours of my time leh. (cos i did it when the commercials starts and then stop when my show is on) haaahaaas.

I do not mind wasting my time on such matters cos i know i am doing it for someone special. =)
Hmm, i hope he can be much more happy today.
Afterall, it is his birthday. :D

LOVE YOU MUCHIE BOYFRIEND.
Mooooooooooooooacks, love always!

2007-01-29T20:59:00.020+08:00

Booohooo.

Tomorrow is darling's 21st years old.
Isnt it so bigggg? haahaas.
Hmmm, the first time i met him, i wasnt offically 18 and he wasnt offically 20.
Now, i am nearing 19 and he is turning 21 tomorrow!
That is fast and time indeed consolidated our r/s, our love. =)
Lesser quarrels cos we know we are too lazy to start one now.
More understanding between us.
Time is amazing. It made me know so much about him. :D

Am still troubled over where to go tomorrow.
Haiyo, i want to go k box again. :x
Shall ask that idiot then see how.

Had a nice late night chat with that idiotic sherline. Haahaaas.
We recalled how we knew our ex-boyfriends and updated the book named:
" All About XXXs!"
Haahaaas.
My friend here is getting too deep into love already.
I thought she told me she is pulling herself out, bit by bit?
How come i dont sense it one sia? Haahaas.
And on the other hand, i tink i am the one pulling myself out bit by bit.
Heeeheeeeheees.

/omfg, my father finally bought my lunch back.
mooooooooacks, love always!

2007-01-29T20:59:00.019+08:00

I am so tired now.
*YAWNS*

Went to Jurong Point in the early afternoon with jiayan.
Jurong Point did not change abit lor. Everything, every shop, still remain intact, no changes. Boring.

I reached home at about 3.30pm.
Slept my head off to about 5 plus and heard my ma ma waking me up exclaiming: ASHTON COME LIAO!
This is the first time Wei Cheng come to my house. =)
And he is the first recognised boyfriend in my family.
I love my boyfriend and Ashton! =D
I believe it takes a lot of courage for my boyfriend to come visiting my parents cos he is SHY BY NATURE!
Muahahaahaaas,
He is too busy hiding his tattos, i discovered. =x

Ashton is having fun with Blacki today.
Despite the fear towards Blacki, Ashton still wants to di siao Blacki.
Haahaaas.
Then when Blacki chased Ashton, Ashton ran until he fell.
Buay Tahan.
And when i bathed ashton, i asked him to pee.
You know where he pee????
He pee in my ma ma's LAUNDRY CONTAINER!
Laugh my ass off sia.

Am so tired after being a less-than-half-day nanny!
I need sleep, NOW!

Moooooooacks, love always!

2007-01-29T20:59:00.018+08:00

See, when i say pics up soon, it means it will really be up soon!
=)
In this society now, we talk about efficiency!
Haahaaas.

Jiayan loves this pic, just like me. moooacks.

I love the bitch beside me!
WHY MUST U FLY OFF TO AUS U BITCH!

I think he looks like MR Chao Ge. Haahaas.

Mr Zhijian! :DDD

'HE' is a member of XIN YUE TUAN!

Them.

I swear we tried to act emo, we TRIED!

THEIR essential! haahaas.

I really had a fun day out.
HAPPY!
moooooooooacks, love always!

2007-01-29T20:59:00.016+08:00

Wooohoooo! >.<
First time in my life singing Hai Kuo Tian Kong in K box sia!
I realised i am still a noob to the song, si eh jialat.
I stucked here and there during the song lor, kan pai seh.
Haahaaaahaaaas.
Am such a sunflower to everyone!
Sang all sorts of song lor, from chi to hokkien to canto then to english, ZAI!
Then with all my action moves that TRY to match with the songs!
XD Horrible!
AND THEN THE BEST PART;
GEK TING SANG TOXIC, OH DAMN FUNNY!
I enjoyed, thoroughly! =)

After the singing session, we went over to jiayan's house to gamble, tok cock and slack.
SI EH SIAN LOR I LOST MONEY LEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOST three BUCKS LEH!
OHHH, heartache!
Play in between bu jiu hao, play what black jack la, hai si me only.
My intial winnings became zero again. =(
Well, i enjoyed myself again. =D

Oh my jiayan is flying off to aus next sat.
I will look at the moon and think of you! moooooooooooacks, love always!

Oh yes, i shitty discovered I ATE F$%^& LOTS OF THINGS today. Like a sai tang like that.
one word; jialat!
(munching on some choc found in some containter now. and i drank so much sweet drinks today, more than 3 cans! die die die.)

/pics up very soon. =))))

2007-01-29T20:59:00.015+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
Stomach bloated now! Disgusting.
This cannot go on. I cant always dont eat in the morning and noon and then stuff myself with lotsa of food for dinner.
Unhealthy!

You wont be able to imagine how bored i am in the noon.
My brother's friends came waking me up cos they were chit chatting so loudly at the door and my brother has yet to come back from his friend's house.
And so, my brother's friends (thoes chatty girls) are stucked outside the house.
Am so kind lor, open the door for them. BUT not welcoming them.
I just tell them that my brother is not in and then i CLOSED the door!
Haahaaahaaas, and continue sleeping. =)
Then, i drank a pack of soya bean and watched the tv.
/I realised there were alot of stupid shows going on during the cny festival.

Finally, my hero came to the rescue!
The boyfriend finished his liondance le. And brought me out! =))))))
Seems like a lil girl waiting for big kor kor to bring me out liddat.
We went to have Fish and Co.
And then, i am dead there.

I swear i ate more than half of the patter! cos i kept losing to him in the stupid 5-10 game! HOW COMMMEE AH?

While waiting for the food, the usual zi lian us kept taking photos. Haahaas.
I like the fish table mat leh!

Waiting is frustrating! Luckily i started the photo taking trend lor, otherwise we will be 2 dumb blocks waiting for the food. (so proud! :DDD)
-___________-'' haahaaas

Happy Full Day!
Mooooacks, love always!

/tomorrow k box with best friend! So happpppppppppy oso! =D

2007-01-29T20:59:00.014+08:00

My boyfriend had gone to bed.
Ever since the lunar new year starts, my boyfriend is out of reach.
=) am so "ok" about it.
He's so busy over liondance and earning money and isolating me at home.
When the lunar new year ends, i will be out of reach. XD
Let's see.

So freaking full now, all the rubbish are doing somersault in my stomach.
Took supper earlier cos all the previous food i ate had gone down into the toilet bowl; effects of the ultimate herbal tea.
Today i received no red packet sia, wasted my time outside le. Should have stayed at home the whole day instead.
Went to far far away places like Pasir Ris, Loyang Temple, Tampiness and Woodlands.
-__________________________________-''
Never will i move my ass to Pasir Ris or Tampiness man, the distance is enough to kill. Ive still got one more year in Ngee Ann.
It gets scary when my dad is thinking whether to move to places like thoes i mentioned.
Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
I live in Chua Chu Kang and will die in it. :')

As usual, the first thing i will do when i reached the temple is to go see my luck for the new year.
And this is what it states:
DRAGON
This is a satisfying year for people born in the year of dragon. Life will be smoothing, results and achievements will be outstanding. There will be honourable people offering help periodically (WHERE WHERE? O.O) Women are fortunate as your fortune will soar to a greater heights. (i skipped the men :P) However, you mus be watchful of your relationship with your male collegues or else you may be edged out by them. This will in turn hamper work progress. (Will rmb to bring parang to work next time :D)
Career
This is a fulfilling year with unexpected rewards. But be wary of unscrupulous characters creating trouble. (oh pls fuck off)
LOVE!
This will be a smooth and romantic year for you (oh dear, is it really true??). For couples in love, this is a good year to consider MARRIAGE (should i? haahaaas).

Notes to myself:
Always remember to be happy. No matter how hard things may be, it willl be solved somehow. =)
Do not get so bothered about how people look at you or treating you cos u cant have best friends all over the world.
You've got jiayan, shirley and sherline. That's enough. These 3 are enough to hold your tears. :D
Boyfriend may be there but please rmb, he WILL NOT always be there.
He will still leave oneday.
So Karis, you gotta be independent.
Happy, put a smile on your face and everything will be so fine. =)
REMEMBER, HAPPY IS A CHOICE! :)))

/awaiting for wed to come quick quick! I want to sing sing sing! heehee.
Oh boyfriend, sleep well.

2007-01-29T20:59:00.013+08:00

Good morning! =)
I forced myself to sleep till now, fucking shiok. =D
But i woke up a total of 3 times in the late night to relieve myself.
I fell asleep so peacefully last night. *eyes close jiu sleep
If there wasnt the 3 times of disturbance, it will be terrific.
The herbal tea really ah, ultimate one.

ANYWAYSSS,
Ive taken all the pics from my brother's phone. haahaas.
I realised there are lotsa zi lian pics in his phone sia. He've got my photo album already lorr. haahaa.

My brother is so same like me. Loves to take pic, haahaas.
Ive finally found my kaki in this house le. =)

Firstly, let me present all my zi lian pics. (but the pics i took this yr is lesser than last yr lor, sians)

=)))

Then with my brother,

LOOK at the family outing!

With the cousins. =D

SEE you next year, seng kang.

2007-01-29T20:59:00.012+08:00

I am tired.
My legs are giving way, my eyelids are getting heavier and my vision is getting blurred.
The whole journey today is enough to make me weak tomorrow.
It is 12.50am now.
The first day of lunar new year is over, just like this.
Isn't it the same for each year? so boring.

Woke up at 11pm and was nagged by the tigeress in the house. F#$%^
Did not talk to my dad till now cos' he's having PMS, anyhow showing temper, bloody hell.
Then, he never give me ang bao oso lor. aijerrr, as if i care.
Went to Bukit panjang, telok blangah, seng kang, sembawang temple and weicheng's house this year.
Freaking lotsa places. Am so tire. =(
Met up with zinc e bitch when i am in seng kang zhou bo.
But thanks to her la, thanks for her toilet!
Drank the herbal tea last night and the effect came when i was going to meet zinc.
The flow inside my stomach, WOOHOO! un-describable.

Been troubled for the past few days.
But now, i am kinda relieved. Had finally sortened out my thoughts. =)
I shouldnt be so foolish to go think of something so impratical.
There are many things in this world that you feel like having.
But we all know, life's unfair, u cant have the best of all.
A choice is what ive to make. and when i have choosen my choice, i should just follow it.
So, i shall follow my heart.
I guess my heart wont be wrong. =)
=DDDDDD
Suddenly feel so happy!

no pics to post up this time cos all the pics are in my di di's phone la and then he nabei went out to his friend's house bai nian liao.
PICS UP SOON! XD

2007-01-29T20:59:00.011+08:00

I feel pain.
From my head to my leg, all pain.
My new year resolution; to take more care of myself! no one will account to you, so ive to account to myself. the last few times of wild playing should be lessened, i should take more care of myself!

No more drink till so drunk again,
no more wild play again,
no more no more no more!
Everything should be NO MORE.
(ok, a little bit wont harm. :x)

Last paper ended yesterday.
The feeling was YES YES YES!
=)))
No more hugging the notes to sleep, so the bloody shiok.
But the thought of separating class with that bitch brings tears to my eyes. =(
Well, this is life. Separation is unavoidable.

Live last night, fucking hell, honestly, i only remember the first part then followed by big big headache. The rest i rrly dunno what ive been doing. im so lucky to reach home safe. =)
Then followed by this morning, ive a big big headache as well. my chest is bursting, the feeling simply sucks.
i dont have to go all the way out for fun one lar. No more.

Oct babies:
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

it's always so true.

2007-01-29T20:59:00.010+08:00

Post-valentine update;

This is the second time celebrating this festival of love with him.
He's so honoured. =x
14/2/07,
ive got my blaw paper. the paper is fine. it's much better than i expected. just hope i can pass. =)
Went over to his house right after the paper to meet up!
Actually, i dont know why valentine day is so special. i met up with him almost everyday and vday is just like another day.
i think i will know why it is special only when we failed to meet up on vday, haahaas.
and that stupid idiot made me waited at his door for about 15-20 mins because he is shitting and could not come out to help me open the door, so lame!
i was wearing skirt lor! made me sat outside the door steps and occassionally jumped in front of the windows to catch the attention of any kind soul inside the house. :@
Wa liew.

Then, after mins of WAITING, i stepped into unit 10-56.
Like finally~
Spotted something that resembled like a pot of plant on his table.
Haahaas, needless to say, that stupid boy made flowers for me again. it was like the third time le can! haahaas, but this time suan bu chuo la, jus tt it looked abit like plant. =x

I like it, thanks! =)

I remembered asking that idiot to say i love you to me and guess what he said???
"v day leh, dont force me leh'' -_-''
Force you? fuck u.

Took plenty of pics in his room. haahaas.
Let's see.

=)))
Then more..

Aijoo, i dont have a scanner at home otherwise i will put up the neoprints as well. =)

Went to vivo that day.
Bought a pair of Mango jeans (heart shattering pain). My $$$ gone. =(
SUPPOSED to go sentosa one lor then end up we went meeting up with his er jie and jie fu for dinner. :@
HOWEVER NEVER MIND, cos' he promised to bring me go after new year! =)
i want to take the high high tower! haahaas. and walked on the beach with him.
Woots!

Buffet for dinner!
Bu fei chai guai, nabei.
2 couples on the table, one pair married and the other pair soon. =x muahaaaahaas.
this is the first time i celebrated vday with another couple. =)
quite nice, we were like a family. (how i wish we are a family!) ooops! =x
Weicheng, pls dun mind my kaobei-ing.
My darling wants me to lessen my kao bei for his vday present;HOW TO?
=B

2007-01-29T20:59:00.009+08:00

Valentines day :))) is to be with the one you love.
And i am glad im with him. =)
(no matter how many lightings i put, he still appear as black as before :s)

2 more papers to go.
FMGT paper was alright, i guess i will pass. =)
much more confidence in this paper than cma, haahaas.
Tml will be business law, and i had yet touched on the revision. serious.
In no mood to study now. :@
Ive to wait for the mood to come then can study one. weirdo.

Yesterday was a nice nice day. :D
I went to have my eyebrows plucked after exams, in preparation for chi new year.
It cost me 10 bucks sia plus the 5 bucks i spent on cab. In total, 15 bucks!
Wa, money spent is so fast. tsktsk.
Then, bought lunch for my heart-love boy. (then fuck, in the end is i eat cos he thinks the food is awful.)
Soon, i find myself on the bed, about to snore my way through when my heart-love boy come di-siao me again.
He everytime says: Wa, come my house everytime see u lie there like pig like tt!
Pai seh, i am ultimately tire hor! slept at 5 on the night before fmgt lor. :@
You then pig ah (look at your stomach :x)
Haahaaahaaaas
So, i slept.
3 hours later, i woke up due to the hotness!
He off the air-con and then slept beside me, IN FRONT OF THE FAN! blocking all the wind la!
Bo bian lor, wake up and then this time was uncle who did the cooking.
*hai shi auntie de cooking better. :P
THEN, ASHTON CAME!!!!!! =D
mooooacks. my cutie came! play and play and play.

Then, at 8 plus we went to IMM.
IMM opened one new big big FOS shop! =D
and many new shops too.
I like to hold my heart-love boy's hand while shopping while he likes to place his hands over my shoulder. ????

Ran hou, we jiu go home le.
Nothing special but the whole process is filled with sweet sweet love.
Most importantly, i love. =)

LOOK at this! this fighting fish is with me for a long time le. =)
Heart-love boy bought it for me when we were in a market watching fishes.
That time, it was still a baby fighting fish, very small only.
Now, it's becoming a teenager liao. =D
i love. =)

2007-01-29T20:59:00.008+08:00

"CLOSE THE FRIDGE PROPERLY! WHO OPEN THE FRIDGE AND NEVER CLOSE PROPERLY(BASTARD) YESTERDAY NIGHT? THE WATER LEAK OUT AND I HAD TO CLEAN! BETTER CLOSE PROPERLY"

This short little warning was found sticking on the fridge this morning when i woke up.
Needless to mention, it was done by our tigeress. Nabei, so hiong leh, she actually wrote a notice for us to see.
The worst thing is I THINK I AM THE BASTARD LA!
Kao, how can a mother call her daughter a bastard. Anyway, i should be a bitch la, dumb. :@

Still at chapt 7 of my fmgt. I have to finish till chapt 10 tonight by hook or by crook. Otherwise i will die tomorrow.
I rrly dont know what to do for blaw le. Omg, no time!
(my adorable bf left me at home and is having fun at outside now. __ =D)

Browsed through all the files in his computer and got hold of some pics that i do not have. =)

Presenting.... The ever first pic he took for me! Took even before we were together, pervert! :P

Then, i saw some pics that we took when we brought ashton to jurong bird park. =) so memorable. I remembered we kept going to places like bird park and zoo at that period of time!

(it will be great if ashton is our kid. I want my own child!)

Noticed ashton's stomach? it's bulging horribly! haahaas.

My stupid boy with messy hair.

And me alone with the birds! haahaas.

=)))) i missed the birds esp the snowy owls, awwwww!

2007-01-29T20:59:00.007+08:00

Am such a lil girl in his presence. :D Say out liao also shy, haahaas.

Had the first paper this morning. (super duper tire-ness in the exam hall)
This is the first time i took my exam paper in SIM Grand Hall because our convention hall is taken for other purpose. I think is used for the Joint Adminstration Exercise (smth to do with O lvls one lar).
The hall is fucking big lar, hai kuo tian kong ah.
Oh yay, i mentioned i was super duper tire cos i only had an hour sleep the last night. :'( The thought of last night is enough to scare me out le. We studied under zinc's void deck as Nicholse came over as well and zinc's house is out of bound to guys, so... haahaas.
First time mugging so hard over a math paper, felt stupid.

But I think effort made is extremely important!
Cos' if i hadnt made the effort to go through the revision lecture qns again and again, i guess there will be alot of questions that will be left undone.
Luckily i only left one undone. Heeeheee.
If I am lucky enough, i should be able to pass. if only.

Stri away went home after the exams, SLEEP.
Like a pig i can say. I need no tossing around to get into sleep this time man.
Is like drop and sleep, simple as that. :DDD
Then, i woke up at around 7pm, wtf.
I intend to go buy jeans one lor, then wake up so late jiu cannot go liao cos that idiot dun wan to go le. :x
Instead, i went to his house. =) *ashton's getting cuter!

Ashton really enjoys bubble-playing session! Each time i bathe him, i had to blow dunno how many bubbles to see his adorable smile. :)

Stupidly, he dont want me to kiss him. But i like to force then end up he pulled my hair! :@

SEE! so pei he me leh this lil boy. =)

Had cleared up some parts of my room and it certainly looked neater now. :)
I had to buy one big box to put all my bags in.
*Boyfriend, ikea after exams? =)))
I had cleaned up the small lil table beside my bed and placed some photographs on it. Looked like a mini gallery of my life.
The photos include WeichengAndKaris, SherlineKarisShirley(in prom night2004), one of my primary school pic and my family photo!
Awwwly-ing sweet!

And there is one more thing in my room that i take very good care of.
That is my LOVE lollipops!
Don't ever attempt to eat them when you come visiting me in my house, i will slap mercilessly!
They are my sweet stuffs, thoes that can see cannot eat ones.
Are bought by weicheng each time we went bugis but he stopped at buying the third one. :(
They are so nice and sweet and loving, i love them and my boyfriend. Heeheeeees.
Placed them in a nice nice place too. =) (i only scare the stupid glaring sun will melt my lollipops!)

So much more needs for changes in my room.
Shall settle it one by one. The most crucial thing now is FMGT AND BLAW, fuckkingg shit.

One more pic, random one. Taken when he is having liondance. My heart-love boy. =)

*Sian sian sian, fasterly gg to bed after this and hardcore revision tomorrow!

2007-01-29T20:59:00.006+08:00

This is the very first time i've stayed up so late in school.
Till 10.45pm.

Mugging like hell with shuhui, edwin and george in the underpass under canteen 1 for hours and hours.
And then the only thing i mastered is relevant costing. (pls make accept/reject come out and make/buy get lost!)
Did flexible budgeting earlier, classwork was alright but one the tutorial qns is abit hard.
My brain is too dried for maths le larrr.

*15 mins later from flexible budgeting notes....

I pray flexible budgeting is easy easy one pls. :'(
The guy called george is amazing. With a slacker face but actually is so bloody smart, for what?!
The way he explains the solution with stories is so cute larr. Cute george, oops. haahaas. =)
I cant erase the laughters of shuhui man. Her laughters ultimate one, from low to high and LOUD. Excuse me, do you rmb u are a lady? haahaaas.
And then the cockroach in the toilet really scare the hell outta her ! Luckily it wasnt as near to me as her! haahaas.
I HATE COCKROACHES, BIG OR SMALL, KILL ALL!

to Boyfriend:
Don't be affected, moooacks. =)

2007-01-29T20:59:00.005+08:00

First paper on friday.
I don't like cma, really.
And im 65% sure in failing this module. (oh ma ma, please forgive me!)

Am having one paper on valentine's day as well, VERY SADDENING LEH!
No present nvm liao, later still cannot meet, nabei nabei nabei! =(((

Been revising since morning, but everything is so vague.
I dont think i have memorised any part of the revision in my heart.
It was more like read thru. If continue like that ah, haahaas, i know what is die le.

Anywayss, ive a small blueblack on my leg and my hand aches. ='((
Whose fault????
WEICHENG's fault!
Hello boy, i just learnt how to play 5-10 only leh, cant u be more lenient???
We played this stupid game a few days ago and the forfeit is to bite the other party when you lose.
I lose la of cos then he really hao bu you yu de bite on my hand!!!!!!!
Bite and pull, bite and pull~ Then i siam here siam there hai me bang on some stupid solid thing i think. Caused my blueblack!
Budden nvm, haahaaahaaahaaaas, my ma ma saw the mark you bitten on!
Hurhurhur, u jialat. My ma ma asked me to inform you that she mind one hor, dont anyhow bite! Haahaas.
So next time let me bite u jiu hao, i tink auntie wont mind a bit. =DDDDDD
Waahaahaaas. ROARRRS!

Should i cont my revision?
It's 2.30am now, should i??
Feel like calling that idiot and disturb his sleep. =x
But i think it is not advisable, he will scream and scold man. Haahaaas.
Unless i call and fake to be crying, earn his sympathy!
But for what ah? Suan le la. Muaahaaahaaas.

HAPPY 16 MONTHS DARLINGGGGG!
YOU'RE FINGER-LICKING GOOD~ SLURPPS.

2007-01-29T20:59:00.004+08:00

Wow.
What is the date today? 5/2/2007~
What is the date tomorrow? 6/2/2007!

Exactly 16 months together with that idiot! =x
Chen WeiCheng, arent u lucky to have me as your girlfriend??? =DDD
But sometimes i feel that im lucky as well to have you as my boyfriend. If only you can curb your temper at times, don't scold me so often and ignore me when you are angry, I think i will loveeee you more!
No matter how many better guys there are outside, you are still the best in my heart larrr, no kidding.
So I shall tolerate all your nonsenses lorr. =x

C'mon, let's recap everything now!
Do you still rmb how we got together one???
It all happened on this sickening night when i went to your sis place intending to play with ashton. Omg, this night ruined our life isnt it?

ALL YOUR FAULT! =p

I still remembered when we first got together, i am such a shy girl man *PUI*
Dun shout, dun scold, dun beat and dun argue with you.
Haahaaahaaas, too bad, the real karis is back! All of the above is unvalid anymore! =DDDD

The first few pictures we took darling!

Still rmb what we did in esplanade??? Heeheehee.

All the neoprints we took =)

and all the fun we had..

Of cos not forgetting the wonderful day u spent with me. =) Because of you, my birthday seems so fun and meaningful. Thanks for the underwater world trip, moooacks! (oh yay, and u enhanced my birthday chalet too! =D)

OUR ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY! =DDD And it so much happened on the mid-autumm festival, haahaaas. So we spent our day holding lanterns ya? =DDD

SO MUCH FUN WE HAD~!

Loves!!!!!!!

2007-01-29T20:59:00.003+08:00

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the endof a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone(alone)
and I tried to find out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heartwho holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with(please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else(I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm(anytime),
than safe and warm by myself(so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,than to have it easy
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart(my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you(surely),
than good times with someone else(surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm(oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself(all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart(you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather.

2007-01-29T20:59:00.001+08:00

I slept till very late today.
My coughs are making me lousy. =(
I just cant be able to go into sleep last night. And when i finally did, i am disturbed by my itchy throat again.
In the end, i slept at only 6-7am. =(

Freaking hungry when i woke up. My stomach is empty. The fact that i ate a lil last night is alr enough. The additional fact that i woke up to vomit for a whole of 4 times last night is even horrible.
Can i just be healthy? for once?

I wasted 2 days not studying everyone! /claps
If i can pass all the modules this time, i will promise to become more optimistic man.
=))

Useless-ing went to cma ydae. Slept the whole of the tutorial. And the teacher din even tried to wake me up oso. Haiis.

Yesterday was a long day.
I reached home only at 12 plus.
And one thing to note: Thank to Jiahao last night. =) Thanks alot.

2007-01-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

*YAYS
All presentations are finallyyyy over! =)
Now is time to study like shit again. HAHAHAHAHAS.

I think everyone knows the death of xu wei lun le right?
Nothing. I just feel that it was such a pity. She was such a gorgeous talented girl.
This is it; god wont let you have the best forever. You get it now and lose it in the future.
This is a cycle, it goes round and round, never ever ending cycle.
And again, once we accepted our demise as a certainty and a part of the cosmic deal;
death becomes a friend who sits on our shoulder to remind us that, as we are only here for a short visit, shouldnt we be smelling flowers along the way? :)

Enjoy life now or regret forever friendssss. =D *LALALALA
Happy most important! (benji noted?) treeheehee.

Below will be very very random photos and content, hahaaahaaas:

Today's ecd presentation was alright and i thought i did well. =DD
Met up with the groupmates in the lib early in the morning for compiling and rehearsing.
Then, zinc wanted to go to the washroom so i followed. Zinc go washroom is veri scaryy one, she can take one whole year to come out from the toilet. =x The comb, hair, blusher and foundation, OMG!

so this is what i will normally do while waiting for my baobei zinc to be ready. paiseh arr, veri zi lian but who cares when i am happy!;

ashton is cute arrr but nowadays becoming dirty-minded le. aijoooo~

Many things are going around me now i realised.
Jiayan's leaving very soon for her overseas attachment ='(~
I sure will cry one. Since when did that bitch leave me alone for so looong sia? 1 mth nehh. :(
whos gonna listen to my troubles when you are away?????
=(((
PEH KAH YAN, loves! moooacks.

I hafen started revision. Walking closer to doom each day sia.
I think i will be very generous in the marks for cma paper again. :D
I think i take a few marks jiu hao le, hurhurhur.
/slaps karis.

to note: i might just die away tml like nobody's business. so karis, just be happy okies? =D
/ive got so much to say. but whos gonna listen?

2007-01-27T13:41:00.000+08:00

:((
Revision lectures are all finishing which goes to show exams ARE REALLY COMING!
:(((
OMG, cma pls pls pls dun fail me.

We went to Holland V a few days ago but i did not blog about it cos i do not have the pics yet. Hahaahaas.
Then, just a moment ago when i checked my mail, i saw one mail named "Longawaited" by egglessjourney!
Haaahaaas. Zinc had finally sent the pics to me leeee. WOOOTS. =D

On the bus:

Upon reaching our destination, we met up with jiahao, benjamin and roosevelt (MY SISTERS!) =)
I dont know how we became sisters one. But, they are great nice dudes. =)
They followed us around, haahaas.
Holland V is boring in the day man. That time when i went in the night, it was full of fun!
Holland V in the day is such a disappointment. =x

Trying to act like a tourist. =x

In the end, we went to Queensway shopping centre after Holland V. and this is the only one pic we took in jiahao's car.

I realised i din take any pics with any of my sisters! haahaas.

To think about it, time really flies pass fast man.
My I&E project (massage parlour) had also finished. =(
Before starting up this stupid massage parlour, i thought it will be veri difficult and a waste of time.
But then, when the day finally arrived, i had lotsa fun! =D
It was like finding a chalet room and then decorated the place inside for our own's comfort. :)
From an ordinary classroom, we transformed it into our massage parlour!
The lightings and the music; makes me wanting to ask for a happy ending with my customers!
haahaas.
Am satisfied with it and most importantly, THANKS TO ALL THOES WHO CAME! =D
; jiahao, benjamin, roosevelt, laotigao aka jianxiong, hon pun, joyce, samantha, edwin, hong ting and one more person (i forget his name le). =x
Thank you! =)
then my bf din come and support. =(

The light of my life. =)

Busily preparing the poster;

we are clean! we dun open hei hei an mo yuan =x

The groupmembers; zinc, jia yi, paul, xiu wen and me! =)))

Our very 1st customer! *applause*

The guy must be enjoying under the tender care of zinc! haahaas.

LOVE

Then, the teacher came in to spot check! heehees.

In the dark:

My beloved sisters; jiahao, roosevelt, benjamin and zinc! =)

Fun! =D

2007-01-21T02:49:00.004+08:00

I cant stand it anymore, im seriously dying. =(

What the fug had happened to me? I'm so the fine 2 days ago and since last night, my body has been malfunctioning. =(

I've got a terrible flu and sorethroat now and haahaas, a fever as well. fug.
So many at one go, which one will kill me first?
=(

The worse is, I got to wake up for school as early as you can imagine man.
=(((
Waking up at 630am rrly makes me feel even sicker and even more like dying.
=((

Iya, i dunno what to blog le la. Im just so sick to type anything except how terrible i am now. =(((

SOMEONE HELPS?!
='(~

2007-01-21T02:49:00.003+08:00

Amazing.
I've posted 845 posts ever since I started blogging. *WOWS*

Feeling so tire now and then. =(
Dun like the feeling of getting so tire, sleep sleep sleep is the most important!
But then hor, I think sleeping will be very hard for me in the coming weeks.
cos, EXAMS ARE COMING! =((((((~

Today's a long long day.
Attended CMA tutorial. I always bring along my body there but nvr do anything one lehhh.
Jialat, can i just fail this module??
FMGT tutorial next. This module is slightly better cos i did not dislike the tutor. So, mian qiang i still got a bit interest in it la.
Cma just forget it lar.

Then, met up jiahao and friends. =)
Went for the not-so-useful HRM revision lecture.
It ended in jus an hour like tt, kinda waste my time. =x
I rather sleep! i dunno how many freaking times i've been performing wayang; swinging my head to and fro in the beginning of the lec. My yawns are countless too.

My fear for BOBO has been eliminated!
After so long, i realised BOBO also quite cute la. (looking at my blacki with watery eyes) =D
Except that she got no waistline, the rest are okie. Hahahas.
And she had determined Benji as her boyfriend *FAINTS*.
Ke lian de Benji, got to learn a whole new language in order to communicate with his girlfriend. =x
How are Benji's parents gonna take in this fact???? Muahhhaaahaaaahaahahaas.
God bless.

Something worth commenting; I reached home very early today!
I managed to watch abit of 7pm show, slacked for the 8pm slot, resumed watching the 9pm show and the final 10pm show!
Great sense of achievement! *HAPPY*

But cannot happy so early, I predict for the next few days, the tv will be far far away from me.
All around me will be thoes stupid notes for exams, they can flood me larrr.
='(

Exams, i dun like.

2007-01-21T02:49:00.002+08:00

The past few nights including tonight were horrible.
The nights were all drilled by projects. =(
The giddy-ness, omg.

Im so glad that rainbow appears after the rain.
Luckily the cold war doesnt last long this time. *smiling widely =D
Happily alright with him once again, thou i still cant get over the previous stupid war. =x

It was a so fine sunday and I ended up in school as early as 1.45pm. *Cry out loud*
Everyone was in the atrium rushing their projects cos the lib wasnt open.
Ironically, our group appears to have only 4 person when there were 6 names on the list. -.-"
Mark down mark down, definitely marking down their marks man! Intolerable!

A sms came in the midst of the project-chionging session and it brings a big big smile onto my face. =)
It was him. Haahaaaahaas.
Then later, we went for dinner at Great World with his family members.
And, the dinner cost $227. *EXCLAIMS* cantonese restaurant nia mahhh.

There was one incident that made me feel so uneasy, till now.
I fugging hate guys that are so bastards, always thinking for themselves only.
Esp when they are married and with kids, that is so intolerable!
Deep in my heart, i rrly sympathise his da jie.
I cannot imagine myself in her situation, really. I will go into a severe depression.
How am I able to stand up strong again when everything happens so fast?
There is no time for her to absorb the reality at all and then before she realised, she had to accept it. Like it her fault like tt, nabei!
The fugging worse part is the separation from xaviver.
Ahhhhh, i feel like sobbing now. =(
How does it feels being separated from your very own flesh and blood?
It definitely wont feel good. I still rmb her facial expression when she is coaxing xaviver to sleep.
The unwillingness but the no choice situation. ='(
The thought of xaviver going back to the bastard rrly anger me. ROARRRRS!

*Let's just hope she could stand up strong fast this time. =)

Heavy heavy heart.
Early marriage really comes with so many problems?
Doesnt compromise helps?
And, if you really wants to have a break from this relationship, shouldnt you be thinking twice for your child's sake?
Iya, fug u lar.

2007-01-21T02:49:00.001+08:00

TOLERANCE.
Practising and practising.
But it always failed on me, shit.

Been long time since I last went to visit my granny.
As usual, my granny will say: where your bf ah? never bring come give ah ma see. Then, follow by her saddy face.
Hahaaahaaaas.
Ah ma, if nothing goes wrong, i will sure bring him for you to see. =)
Aiya, dont know why so fast, ah gong had left us for 3 years, a whole 3 years.
Sometimes, I still cant take in this fact. I will always assume ah gong is in China doing some business like he always did.
But this "china trip" will be forever.
God bless the health of my granny pls. =)

Then dont know why fugging shit I suggested gg to K-box.
And I tell you, it just went badly. So lousily.
You know what, I just hate that period of time.
Giving faces like there's no one around.
Oh man, sorry sherline.

Later, met up with some friends and have a good night talk with them at Sunshine place.
:D
At least Im not alone at home this time, ive got myself good company.
Fun-loving lot.
The previous anger was lessened and my mood was somehow lifted.
Thanks alot larrrr.

Now, im bloody sleepy and my half-done ECD project was all wrong.
Oh fug, it means re-do, nabei.
School tomorrow (SUNDAY), how worse life can be?
Projects are killers, exams are murders and my eye bags are the sufferers.
='(~

2007-01-21T02:49:00.000+08:00

YOUR REPORT CARD:
Category	Grade
Love	A+
Friends and Family	A+
Body	C
Mind	C
Finance / Career	F
Your Life's Average Grade: B
'What" is your Life Grade?' at QuizGalaxy.com

2007-01-08T00:35:00.010+08:00

Supposed to be in bed now.
Revised a lil of CMA earlier and i realised im really dying in this module.
Fuck me, who to blame this time -me, of cos.
=(

Even fmgt seems to be better than cma.
How come ive a strong premonition that i'll be flunking cma this semster? =(
I need help, seriously.
Cant afford to play more already. Exams are approaching damn fast.
The cycle of study, brk and then exam makes me feel so sick.
Bring me out from this ever-going cycle!
Am going crazy! =@
Getting ECD test paper tomorrow; fuck that calculation qns.
Dont know how many bloody times i have been ranting over that qns. I JUST CANT GET OVER IT.
And that qns better not cause a drastic drop in my results, otherwise...
Aiya, shit fuck myself lar.
Why am i such a rubbish when it comes to math??????
mummy whyyyy~
='(

Watched the news tonight.
One particular news caught my attention and made me sat down on my sofa for a long time pondering over it.
The world end's clock had once again been adjusted to an earlier time.
Which means world end is approaching sooner than before. Isnt it scarryyyy?
Ya, I know we cant avoid death. But do you that we are the ones CAUSING THE WORLD TO END EARLIER?
Thoes greenhouse gases and thoes nuclear bombs meant for wars are the causes of the put-forward world end. And, not forgetting the climatic changes of course.
Dont understand what are people thinking.
Fighting over land and gold but unintentionally causing an early death for themselves.
PEACE PLEASE!
I want to live longer and have my own family. Dont ruin my dream please.

Well, on a lighter tone, my fatty and i are gg to k-box this sat. =))))
Looking forward to it, loves.

2007-01-08T00:35:00.009+08:00

FUCKING IN PAINNNN. :'(~

EVERYONE!
Fucking menses came and find me this month le.
I can feel the uterus being torn apart and the fragments being washed into my vagina then out into the pad.
AHHHHHHHHHH!
VERYYY PAINNNN! =(((
I DONT WANT TO BE A WOMAN ANYMORE!

My friend asked;
should she accept another guy and leave her present one as her present one is treating her coldly.
This kind of question ah, hard to answer. (like there are both pros and cons in both ans wah)
If she rrly accepted the guy, she wun be achieving the real happiness again cos the guy isnt the one she rrly loves. He is just a substitute right?
And if she reject the guy, she gotta tolerate the coldness attitude from her present boyfriend. Haiis, isnt that sick?
BUTT, some might tink that at least she is with the one she loves truely.
To me, i am the some.

However, if the present one is going too overboard, i will just take my leave without making anyone as a substitute. It doesnt feels good being a substitute I TELL U!
So my friend, pls tink hard. =)

Exams are so fugging approaching and my mind isnt able to focus on revision.
What am i going to do???
=/

2007-01-08T00:35:00.008+08:00

Browsing thru lotsa blogskins these days in hope of finding a real nice one to change into.
Then, I realised I'm really in LOVE with my present blogskin.
Nothing else satisified me like the present one does. =)))
FINE, SO BE IT.

School has been the same old thing.
BORRRINGGG.

Wasnt happy with my common test grades; it could be much better if i wasnt so unprepared. (aiya, keep like tt say nia oso no actions one. =x)
Failed CMA test 2; nah, ive long expected tt. Din even studied for a day for that bloody test lar. And if i could pass in that condition, i will be so proud and unmotivated to study a bit for my exams le.
SO, SERVE YOUR ASS RIGHT KARIS.
=)~
The rest of the tests are okie except tt i still dont know how much i got for my ecd (bloody hell, i screwed tt fucking easy calculation qns, I CANT GET OVER IT!)
/slaps

Woots, Zinc sent alot of my zi lian photos to me a few days ago.
Thou some I dont even remember I did take that on my own! *Faints*

Some photos: ~

you know larr, it's fugging hard for me to stay focus in class one lor. luckily zinc bought a new phone and the camera function damn YICHIBAN lahh. Haahhahaaahas.

and i TELL you; Ngee Ann's toilets lightings are the bests larrr. WOOOTTS! i think when i'm taking pretty pic, zinc is in the toilet busying. Heeheee.

Then it is borrrinngg lecture time. Tried to giup jasmine, LAUGH OUT LOUD. Hahahahas.

Trying the best i can to stay quiet and attentive le. But i think that only last for a few mins only. -_-"

haiiiss, is it real time to start revision alr?
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, exammmmsssssssssssssss!
=((((~~~

2007-01-08T00:35:00.007+08:00

Chen Wei Cheng;
i'm really grateful and thankful to god that i've met someone like him. =)
Definitely not trying to be mushy infront of you guys.
I just want to express my utmost appreciation to a guy like him.

Thank you so much for helping me out.
All along in my life, I always assumed none of my love ones will understand or even know how to handle me when ive a serious relapse.
WELL, facts have proven me wrong, so wrong.
=)))

Chen Wei Cheng,
for you,
I want to go on a DIET!!!
FOR YOU MY DEAR!

really thankssssssss alot.

2007-01-08T00:35:00.006+08:00

I hate RAIN.
Stop raining non-stop; my mood is affected and the skin on my feet are wrinkled. ;@

Time passed fast today.
I have attended BLAW tutorial. Everyone had taken back their test papers and there are lots of distinctions; though some I dont know why they can get it.
I din had mine cos I was absent. Yay lah, I know whats everyone's thinking.
I say I sick you believe mehhh? Just believe what you believe larrr.

Taken ECD test.
Screwed the calculation question up. How come I always cant do well in calculation questions arrr? I've a calculator with me somemore, dumb.
WELL, at least the rest of the theory questions were ALRIGHT.
Wasnt as terrible as what I thought it might be. So that means I can still pass. xD

Went to find him after the test in the rain!
I hate rain.
Was wet when I reached, and the weather made me feel like just throwing myself on his bed and doze away snoring loudly like THE HULK!
Haaahaaas.
maybe the longer the togetherness, the lesser the crave for each other?
actually i can do fine without meeting you i think, but i just dont want the cravings for you to be any lessened.
i want my passion for you to be ever-growing with fire.
so, i went in the end.

Finally ate my DUCK noodles. :D~
and I dont know why it really taste delicious. *you will not believe it when you see where it is coming from.
i wanna have one more go on this yummy noodles the next time i meet him at his place. =)
shit, fugging salivating now.

Okies, going off for a sleep.
Tomorrow's kumon is killing my enthusiasium.
FUCK kumon.
*jiayan, if you were given a chance, you will run away far far from kumon right RIGHT RIGHT?
I SIMPLY FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY FROM IT NOW!
;@@@@@

maybe the only time that the rain outside appears welcoming is when i am sleeping.
the cooling sensation with the sweet dreams, oh man, im so coming!

p/s I LOVE ZINC AND I DONT KNOW WHY. MAY FRIENDSHIP LAST. =))

2007-01-08T00:35:00.005+08:00

Am going bonkers after revision of 5 ECD lectures.
there is still 3 more to go and the time is nearing 9pm.
=(
Which means I gotta sacrifice my sleeping time again.
Let's hope the fact of me waking up at only 1 plus this noon helps me being awake.

Walked up and down the apartment for the whole day with my notes in my hand.
Surfing the internet for 1/3 of the day with my notes JUST NEXT to my lappy.
Lying down on my sofa for 1/5 of the day with my notes on my chest.
I studied just like that today. xD
Luckily I started my revision on monday otherwise fire will be burning on my tail already.

Karis loves to hug the buddha's leg everytime at the very last minute. This is just one of her attributes.

And I spent 1/10000000000000 of the time with Blacki.
He is getting messy with all the entangled hairs.
I though I heard my elder brother saying he wanted to bring Blacki for a grooming and there is even a note for it on his whiteboard.
BUT HE ISNT CARRYING OUT HIS MISSION.
Oh poor Blacki with an infected ear. ='(

These are the two pets in the Choos family.

my mum prefers the one above while we prefer the one below!

I LOVE BLACKI. =)))

AND FIGHT WITH BLACKI TOO!

the following pic is humourous! I intended to take a pic on my own when blacki intervened behind. hahahaahaas.

so i CANED him! ;@ and he became all flat. LOL.

Stupid brother pacifying him. Like that pacify him, next time he wun listen to me le larrr!

So, I punished him once more by putting him in the LAUNDRY BIN! *EVIL LAUGHTERS*

Had fun with Blacki cos he will never fight back with me, I'm always the winner!
The ruler of our kingdon!
Hahahaaahas.

p/s blacki is so tired. he is sleeping right under my legs now. cutie lil boyyy. =)

2007-01-08T00:35:00.004+08:00

No school today.
Aiya, it isnt a surprise anyway; it's a thursday.
Means, no school.

Thursday is meant for IS and tutor says that we gotta meet up on our own (yaya, as if we will do that).
Week 12 now, oh no. And I think the progress in our IS project is so insignificant.
JIA YI, do some what leader should do, though this module only pass/fail only.
Hahahahahas, I know you want an AD in IS.
=p

PEOPLE!
I've attended CMA lecture yday. WOOT.
Dont know how many bloody times Ive skipped that lec.
Hahahahahaaas, god jus hope I wun flunk in this module pls.

And PEOPLE again!
I BOUGHT CHEE CHEONG FUN INTO THE LECTURE HALL AND EAT!
Laughs out bloody laugh this time.
Damn hungry lah, then after lec had to rush to work. No time for dinner.
I hate the 2 guys behind me at that time.
They kept fanning my chee cheong fun, making the smell flies all over the hall.
Jealous cannot eat chee cheong fan harrrr.
Hahahahahaaaas.
Eh, one mistake, is chee cheong fan plus one siew mai.
Took 20 mins to finish it.
=DDD

Today will be a home-day.
The rain makes me feel so sleepy but ive just woke up only.
And the unfinished ECD revision makes me all alert once more.
Okie, I want to go eat my lunch and start being an entrepreneur le.

2007-01-08T00:35:00.003+08:00

Someone said this;

"Once we accept our demise as a certainty and a part of the cosmic deal;
death becomes a friend who sits on our shoulder to remind us that, as we are only here for a short visit, shouldn't we be smelling the flowers along the way?"

Hope everyone understands.
=)))

2007-01-08T00:35:00.002+08:00

Happy happy stuffs to share. x))

I finally been to KK hospital to have a checkup. And I finally got to resume my medication once more. So shioooook to know that I can stand late nights and have heavy workout without getting weak next morning again. Hahahahass, yipppeee. =D

Paid my outstanding hospital bills today too, it feels good to clear your debts. Don't you?

Waited for a whole 1 and a 1/2 hour to see my doc. The waiting time is a killer everytime I went. Is there really no way to improve on that? Stop giving us to fill in any feedback forms when my feedbacks are not getting processed. :@ Wasting paper, spoiling the environment onlyy.
Luckily, it wasnt weicheng who accompanied me for the checkup today. Or else he will grumble a big deal on the waiting time. Mama's better, she just kept dozing off for more than half the period of the waiting time, hahahahaaas.

Everthing's fine. =) No new illness diagonised, the old one is stable. Everything is just so fine and I have got my supply of medicine for one month (cos they out of stock).

And the best best thing is, I need not to take blood the next time i go for a checkup. Whoooaaaaa! The doc thinks it is useless to determine my condition based on my blood cos my illness is symptomatic. You just cant detect anything's wrong when I did not have a relapse.
So no more needles poke poke into my hand! Muahhahahahaaahaaas. ((((=

Had a hair cut. I saw shirley!!!!!! Misses is incredible. I missed her and she appeared in front of me so soon. Hahahaas.
Short short hair for me now, the hot weather is killing.

=)) At least my life is going smooth now, no hurdles and hope none will appear soon.

And now, it is time to study hard again.
SIAN.

2007-01-08T00:35:00.001+08:00

Feeling alright after the previous entry. =)
Releasing some thoughts out once in a while do helps me getting a little relaxed.
At least, it beats smoking. No comments from anyone for this please.
And, I believe Weicheng will be so readily agreeing with me. Hahas.

No medication is hell. These few mornings are torturous. Waking up each morning just to experience the extreme numbness in both of my legs and hands. It just came into my mind thinking what if oneday I am gonna be in this state forever. What if my medication is banned? Oh man, I tell you, I will be better off dying than suffering everyday in this world. You all really wont know how it feels being unable to climb stairs, to get up a bus and falling down in the toilet when you just finished ur business and intending to get up from the toilet bowl. All these simple actions are mountain-high difficult jobs for me when I have a relapse. And, FUCK thoes who have suspicions on my illness, thinking that I am making all these things up. Fuck it okies.

This morning was no difference. Relapse auntie (i dunno why i want relapse to be an auntie, it just sound girly) visited. Resulted in me being not able to meet the rest of my groupmates in Telok Blangah for project. =((( Very sad you know. In the end, I helped up via internet.

Relapse auntie went off around 2-3 in the noon. Weicheng came fetching me to Limbang's mac to get my project done cos there is no internet for me to tap at home =x. Sweet of him.

Dilly-dally-ing some time in Chee Seng Temple and my bf being the sweetest, keeps making fun out of me. Enjoying.

The laughters from him when I'm taking this pic is so genuine I tell you.

Finished my project and bought mac to his house. Xaviver has grown up to look more like his father. Where has all his mother's genes gone to?

The best amazing part is Xaviver being the most sensitive to strangers actually allowed Yi Zhi to carry him okies! The look of mine just scare him off crying when YiZhi actually managed to carry him so peacefully. This surprised me so much that I kept trying to pacify him and sorts. And then, I gave up. Xaviver prefers YiZhi. Alright. :@

I still cant believe leiii.

Xaviver is definately showing biasness. Okies, that explains.
Hahahahahaaaas.

2007-01-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

Am having mixed feelings now.
Did I make the right decision a year ago?
I hate to think that I am snatching away something important from someone's else life.
I know, everyone will be saying I am thinking far too much. Like what rubbish you thinking, you know things are not like that lar.
But, perhaps she really needs that someone more than I do.

Guilt has always reside in the little part of my heart. And it always surface when I went to.....
You really cant blame me for the guilt. If I didnt appear, things might turn out otherwise and they might be happily together. *** is so lonely with the lost of something precious and my appearance took away the other important? one from ***. =(
I am so much a criminal. And if I belong from the past, I might be reckoned as a bitch. =((

I hate going to....... but I cant stop myself for doing it cos I really wants to know how ***'s doing. Each time I did it, thoughts will come to me, flooding. So whelming that sometimes I cant even figure what exactly am I thinking about. And, when I cant figure things out, I will just put the blame on myself and hope that I did not appear. =(

Okies, I guess sherline and jiayan will be most probably puzzled by now. Thinking how come I have became so pessimistic again. Hahas. Well, when u left someone alone in the night, u will be surprised at the amount of things he/she is thinking. And you cant blame me for thinking of the sad incidents too when they are so hard to forget. I might get over thoes incidents but my heart hasnt erased them off. And, how to anyway? They are of such great impact man. Hard not to think back.

The greatest fear in me is not going to be over so soon, believe me. And please, e fear is not what you all think it is to be, definately not. The greatest fear in me, no one knows, not even the closest, so it wont be you. I am not going to tell anyone, now at this moment. No one will be able to take it anyway. Dont bother to ask too, ok. Respect me pls. =) Like what zinc always mentioned: Don't need to explain; your friends wont need it and your enemies dont believe it anyway. No matter how much I wish to share this with one of you, I just cant. =(( It is terrible, believe me. To hold a secret so important to you and yourself only is terrible. I want to get free from this shit, really. I want no sin. But who can help? God perhaps.

I hope to see the world in another perspective. I hope to see the world with rainbows and stars but not dark clouds and rain. =) I want my world to be filled with laughters and joy but not sadness and tears. And, remember, HAPPINESS IS A DECISION, really.

I know my pa pa is leaving soon and maybe my ma ma will not be able to take it and break down too. I must be strong. For my ma ma, I must work hard now. People come and go; when there's a birth there must be a death. Grief is unavoidable but time heals all, isnt it?

I want happiness in my life, forever.
And, no one is gonna take it away from me.

p/s someone notice my time and date for my blog entry isnt matching??? how to solve this
problem?

2007-01-01T13:00:00.005+08:00

OH MAN, fuck Kumon.

Been working a year plus in kumon but still Im stuck in the marking position. You know what marking non-stop makes u feel like???
Ans: A ROBOT.

Fuck.

Hazel is quitting in 2 weeks time and initially I wanted to talk to Mrs Goh that I hope to take over Hazel position. I need a change of my work duities badly. I am so sick of marking each time I enter Kumon. =@ Fugging pek chek.

But now I abolished this thought of mine cos I am so sure that I will be quitting very veryy soon.

Yday work was okiess but I am stuck in the marking position again. Lots of marking makes me feel weak and drained out. And, as everyone knows, I do not have any pills with me now and the drained energy has no ways getting replenished larrr, nabei. So, this sat, I am sick again. Till now, my lower part of the body is still unmovable. The only happy thing is my fingers are okie (if not how to type). However in the morning, the condition is disastrous, i am bed-ridden ok. Ive asked my mum to call kumon for a day leave. And guess what kumon said? They wanted me to produce a MC. Are you dumb or what? You expect my mum to carry me to the hospital or an ambulance to come fetch me there? I am bed-ridden ok! Just because u want a MC, u want a bed-ridden girl to climb all the way to KK hospital? Oh man, retribution is all around ok? Pls take good care of Rene and Amos if you are treating other people's child like this.

What goes around comes around. =)

And, the best part is if I am unable to produce an MC, they will deduct 10% of my pay. Hahahahas, if you think this will scare me off, you are so freaking damn wrong. This made me more firm in quitting.

So, I will prepare my letter well and hand in on Wed. =DDDD
Lalalalalalalalalala*

2007-01-01T13:00:00.003+08:00

SO SICK.

Sick sick sick, from head to toe I feel so sick. =(
Ive been lacking from my medication for a few weeks and experiencing the pains of relapse every morning. =( And my next checkup is only on next monday. =( I skipped today's school cos I do not have the strength to climb up the stairs of the bus.

Does any of you know how it feels for being unable to climb up a bus? I doubt so, everyone's having a healthy body unlike me. =(

Felt so guilty for skipping school. It seems like Ive been lacking behind alot on the academic part. But I am left with no choice. I simply cant take a cab to school when my wallet has only 7 bucks. =(

Then, what makes my mood worse is the work in Kumon. Am marking like crazy today. =( So stressssss. And there's no bonus this year!!!! HOW COMMEEEE?

Quite bent on quitting this time, waiting for huishan and friends. When everyone's ready, we'll say bye bye to Kumon. KISS GOODBYEEEEE.

2007-01-01T13:00:00.002+08:00

COOKING CAN BE SO FUN. =D~

We spent the day at home today. Got no $$$ to spare for things like movie and good food anymore so we just had to resign to fate and stay obediently at home. =x

Well, we decided to cook our own dinner tonight and the kitchen was our playroom. Hahas. It has been fun cooking with him thou I got ticked off by him here and there while helping. Everytime think he is so smart but end up Im the one cooking most of the food lorrr. :x

We whipped up luncheon meat, ham, bacon, sausages and ham omelette! What a spread right? Hahas, and the rice is cooked by his ma ma b4 going out. (cos i dunno how to cook rice, diaoss)

Cooking makes me look like an aunite....

and him like an uncle.

everything's ready except the luncheon meat..

Who's the one who put so much oil!!!!

The lucheon meat had a hard time getting cripsy cos of the large amount of oil!!! And if you realised, there isnt any vege to go with, this is a fault. We must always have a meal with vege. Next time, I will take note of this. Hahas.

The Finale!

I can pass as a good daughter-in-law le, YIPPEEEE!

2007-01-01T13:00:00.001+08:00

To all folks,
Happy Happy New Year! =D~

This was fast. 2006 gone and 2007 had arrived. Woot, time indeed flies. Wasnt exactly clear whether I've spent 2006 in the way I wanted it to be. I had fun, had joy, had happiness and at the same time had cries and had sadness in the year. A fulfilling year perhaps.

So my new year resolutions for 2007 will be:

Earn more money
Save more money
Spent more money on good food and nice clothes
Share more love and joy
Less quarrels and misunderstandings between us
More laughters, less cries
Be a good girl to papa and mama
Study hard (oh-so-crap)

I guess that will be enough. If I were to fulfil every single point mentioned, I will be so triggerhappy! Hahas. =DD

Went to view the fireworks at esplanade. The crowd was horrible. I am so sure my bf will not accompany me to the esplanade next new yr again. Hahas. He wont want to squeeze in the crowd anymore. =x

Reached Suntec at around 9+ and we proceeded to the arcade. Played and took neoprints again (the last neoprint of the year 2006). Will put it up when he scanned the neoprints. Then waited for ruqiang and yizhi to come before we can go over to the esplanade. They took a long time. =x

I got bored while waiting so the cam-whoring starts:

While waiting for the neoprints to be ready,

Found a place to sit and while settling down, the cam-whoring process resume,

He likes to li siao my photo =x

This pic can be very nice actually. :@

Then, the both of us,

Ohhhhh yaaaa, and I thought this pic looks great as well. So sweet and innocent look of his. =x

A GREAT YEAR AHEAD KARIS!!!! =D

2007-01-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

Hello, testing testing again!

2006-12-30T15:23:00.000+08:00

Im at his house waiting for him again.
So sick now.
I need some herbal tea or what shit to suppress the heat within me now.
=((

Quick, be home quick stupid guy.

2006-12-28T17:39:00.000+08:00

OKAYYS.

Here alone with Ashton in his house waiting for him to be back from a job interview. Let's just hope this time it is a successful interview. Just now Ashton came running shouting "mum mum". Gave him a bun but he wanted biscuits and it was thoes super sweet biscuits. Dont wanna give but he showed me thoes cutie innocent face that made me hard to say NO. So, I gave in and he is eating the biscuits so happily now. Haiss, sinful.

And, after eating, Ashton broke the bowl. Oh man, disastor!

Having a terrible throat sore now. Zouk was terrible. The music is what-e-fug. How to dance? And the people there are like so pro. They knew the dancesteps to each music, terrific. I just followed the rhythm. =x Yesterday Zouk was too packed. Never club on a ladies night again,.

Hey, why isnt him back?? I am waiting so long.

Here are some of the pics taken last night, enjoy muahhaahaas.

Before heading to Zouk

She is always in my pic. x)

2006-12-25T15:56:00.002+08:00

Early in thee morning, I lied. =x

Was coughing all the way and a lil feverish when I woke up for bloody Kumon. Took a bath and the feverish-feel wasnt away so I think I might be having a fever again. But one thing for sure, I have a cough, a bad one as well. =( Was so hard to decide if I wanna go for work not cos' there will be so many kids there. And my coughing-germs will sure go to them one lorr, they so vulnerable. =x Not wanting to hurt Tay Ying, Jewel, Joey and Adam and more lah (just that I cant recall their name now)

Dunno if it was just my nonsense thinking or what, I just had a feeling thoes that were coughing around me were all kana spread from me one. Oh man, so sorri. In order to save the others, I decided not to go for work. Hahas. And, I just called Mrs Goh to announce the bad news. =x

However, as I did not tell my mum I skipped work, I had to pretend gg to work later. Pretending to go for work when in actual fact I am heading Bukit Batok again. Muahhaahahahaaas. Bo bian arh bo bians. Later I never go work my ma ma dun let me stay the night out jiu die.

Soooo, this is such a white lie. Hope my darlingg isnt sleeping too soudly and deeply when I reached later. He is unaware of my early arrival! Haaahaahas.

2006-12-25T15:56:00.001+08:00

Right at this moment I am thinking hard of what I might be doing 5 or 6 hours from now.

Now, I am waiting for 6pm to come so that I could start work. I am so freaking bored staying at home facing this lappy of mine since the day before. =x

My younger brother got his pay just today and he offered to give me 50 bucks. I am real touched. I requested for 20 bucks and he offered 50. I really love this brother of mine. As for the elder one, forget it larr. Dont bother to mention. I think we have some grudges towards each other in our previous life.

One more hour to 6pm. And after working for 4 hours, I will be heading down to Phuture with Jiayan and Sherline to club. I know many will be unable to understand why I still want to go clubbing just after my recovery. But I guess there are just so much things that are so unexplainable and hard to interpret. Well, no need to explain; your friends dont need it and your enemies wont believe it anyway. =) I just know what I am doing.